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2011-12-31T04:42:00.001-08:00

#323

When it all comes down, the only way is up;

There are some people who can be very busy and yet you still feels a connection with; but there are also some who you suddenly feel that you don't know them anymore.

I've been resisting the change in JC in some ways because I really do find comfort in the past. But I realized, the nightmares never changed, while the good dreams stay. I hope to really believe in "what are words".

近在眼前的幸福能抓多紧就抓多紧

Nevertheless, it has been a pretty fruitful year! I believe in 能者多劳 now! For everything I did, I think I at least got the recognition that I deserve, whether it is indirectly or directly.

Birthday celebrations this year are all so fun! Planning and the process! It's so heartwarming to bring just simple smiles to another person's face. Maybe I'm really quite free to think and occupy myself with these celebrations, sort of took my mind away from PW!

Ooh and I'm glad I survived PW! I'm really much stronger than I thought I am, aren't I!

In the new year, I hope to be less selfish (:

谢谢 401`10, NYGZ, 203`08, 6E`06, seniors, and everyone!

没有一个人的一年是一个人度过的我也是!

就让所有眼泪和所有忧愁

埋伏在2011年的土壤中

等待2012花开结果的芬芳!

2012

我们一起度过!

323

2011-09-05T07:38:00.001-07:00

#323

迟来的八月

I can't believe I forgot to post here last month. Must be too many things happening... lecture test, xintong's birthday, teachers' day, huh? haha. I'm my own's blog main source of traffic. Conditioned to always click the link to here...

Yay I finally made a new icon after... (not sure how long :S) Yep no more 牵挂 because 罗志祥 will give me 力量 from now on! I lack lots of motivation! I should stop using the computer always end up not doing PW and make me feel so sleepy!

We grew up so fast, yet how much has changed? Haha so many years already, some scars will always be there. 有时候还会隐隐作痛! I was never so unsure about everything. I don't know if that's what I want, that's what I deserve to get, that's what I believed in.

每一次说服自己可以微笑, 眼泪在背后却酝酿着乞讨

我需要一个大大的拥抱; 一双可靠的肩膀; 一颗心有灵犀;

我抱着回忆一直往前奔跑, 一路上是不是也丢失了一些?

一切的温柔, 抚摸着一路上的伤痕; 是不是可以依靠...?

Maybe I need to be reminded that, there are indeed boundaries.

Or are there?

在你身上找到的慰藉也许只是借来的幸福

在你眼中看到的在乎也许只是自然的付出

我没有勇气承担这些慰藉的重量这种在乎的渴望

我不够潇洒想不透看不穿

不管怎样, 我需要从罗志祥身上寻找动力

也就是从我心里寻找力量; 寻找奇迹

Have faith, and I will get there.

322

2011-07-30T08:06:00.001-07:00

#322

30/07 祝罗志祥生日快乐 :)

Haha I don't even remember how old he is already. 31? But he always look young :D and 陪我到最后 has one of the most touching melody ever!

Caught Harry Potter. I still can't believe it ended! It's not supposed to be like that, hai, no more every-year-must-watch-movie! JK Rowling is really super smart, haha can't believe last time I will read mugglenet for all the speculations, spoilers, amusing stuff. I feel so lucky to live in this era! Not too young to dismiss the adventure, and not too old to be fascinated :) Partially because the wizard world seems like a fragment of imagination all of us are attracted towards it? Because we can always imagine... Just like how, 罗志祥 is sort of an invisible kind of 寄托 which sort of make life smoother, or easier to get by at times.

Anyway, I'm waiting for Crazy, Stupid, Love to come out haha trailer looks so funny.

HEH 11:11 now. I'll make a wish.

One minute could be so long! ;)

I'm starting to feel alone in doing all the stuff, like if you are the leader you have to be responsible, i.e. even if everyone else slacks/ not free/ don't care you have to 咬紧牙关 and finish everything? Sometimes I truly question why I keep doing and doing and doing spending so much time on it, and I realize the answer is because I will feel guilty if I don't finish it because it's my "responsibility" so being alone is the meaning of a committee? Physically, but more of emotionally drained-

Happier note, I should never have doubted faith. I believe that you believe what I believe! Maybe distance isn't that bad afterall, more space and less together, but definitely more appreciation and treasuring. Three quarter of the time I'm driven by faith and belief actually.

Actually on Friday when I took 174 home, before I fell asleep, I realize I don't really have much portfolio... Hai so I don't even dare to dream high about what universities I can get in especially during interviews when I will most probably have nothing to say.

Played Endless Love on guzheng after so long... felt 安慰

陪你到最后, 不说的承诺

不会再让你一人看日落

握你的手对我已足够

只要心里懂, 会思念

一个笑容我都接受

我愿意陪你到最后

... 罗志祥也会!

321

2011-05-31T07:04:00.000-07:00

#321

My heart is so jet lagged.

Dance night was quite fun (+ CIP hours~)! 花落水无痕 is damn awesome x 3! 贾宝玉 is damn cool!! :D Quite funny/amusing to observe people behind the roses. After being in contact with roses for two days, however cliche it is, I guess the idea of "receiving flowers" is still what many people pursue? I never really receive flowers for my past 4 years in NY, because they are mainly food HAHA. I wonder do you really feel that great receiving so many flowers? Doesn't flowers feel a bit distant... But I like those kind with a story behind like 为了死亡而生存/ adopt a rose! ;)

Term 2 ended! And so is semester one! Time passes really really fast but school drags on like forever. The last week is terrible everyday I'm just hoping for the day to end, and the thing is I'm not busy after school either. Life's so different, I used to reach home damn late on tuesday and thursday nights, now thursday is my earliest day? And I'm getting abit sick of fishtank too.

I keep thinking 2010 is still very recent, which is actually not considering it's almost half a year ago. I seem to have lost the drive to pay attention and do work, slacking every second away. But at least past two days I felt that I did something. Anyway holidays = think of how to spend money and where to spend on. Actually majority of the time it goes to food or movies.

I can't believe I'm not going to be where I am in around now in a month's time. How will I ever be strong enough to pack everything up, opening up drawers of letters and reading them ... 让回忆填满眼眶, 让感激泛滥~

I still remember clearly last year graduation night, how I teared quite badly to every line which says I'm a good friend. I hope I will always be :)

Somehow this year I grow to have so much more faith than what I expected. All of our friendships will stay strong as long as we are strong too! And when we're not, there will be the others who are!

我相信

在彩虹另一端等待我们的不是什么金银珠宝,

而是我们有对方就有信念到达的希望.

Seriously, in the end, all that mattered is

找到伯乐的感激

320

2011-04-30T06:47:00.000-07:00

#320

Even if wishing is a waste of time,

Even if I never crossed your mind.

I read through my (long dead) tagboard just now. It started of with me wanting to delete a spam tag haha. Ohman so many years passed since the first tag in the archive and even though I never had the habit of replying tags, I do remember the context/ feeling behind each tag! Maybe it's good that it's dead, because every single tag which I treasure so far will forever be there. :)

And it's been forever since I change any details under my profile. It still has the nice little icon which I made 2 years ago haha. I used to be so good/ efficient at creating loads and loads of 100x100pixels designs whereas now I'm just happy with my monthly update of luozhixiang. Anyway, the main point is, I grow to understand why I never wanted to edit the details. Not because of laziness? Maybe subconsciously I just want everything to stay like what's in the sidebar, still in ny, still in nygz, still in 3/401. Still go for GCP. Still wear sleeveless shirts. Still walking into a CLASSROOM every morning. Still passes by the cleaner pond. Still attempting to climb the clock tower...

How can my simple, self-satisfactory life suddenly takes such a drastic turn! To become complicated, doubtful, curious? So funny to say that I'm still growing up from all these transitions because that sound so secondary school.

Waiting. Preparation. Anticipation. Gave me hope. I hope it continues doing so. And something in me tells me not to give up on 11:11. No matter how fate has disappoint me each time.

At times, I really wonder what do I want in life?

或许我最想要的

只是一个可以懂得我的你

一个不会逃脱的你

一边在泪流, 一边紧抱我

小声地说, 多么爱我

谁说要失去才会珍惜

I really grow to appreciate the strength of faith.

Even if you cannot hear my voice,

I'll be right beside you dear.

319

2011-02-26T06:26:00.000-08:00

319

Inevitable.

I finally spotted the "traffic" section under one of the alien-looking tabs in my blogger account and clicked on it. What's the use of me finding that function now when my traffic is approaching the y=0 asymptote, or maybe it is already a continuous x-intercept (at 0 haha) already. Irony totally. Maybe this is going to replace my LJ as a public private journal. (Talk about irony AGAIN!) Haha life is so confusing sometimes.

POP was very high, athena is really full of crazy (in a good way?) people this year! Haha and actually all faculty dances are nice. Ah but the post-emptiness is slightly disturbing.

I really thought I was adapting well to changes last week. I truly tried very hard to talk to people and stay awake/ pay attention during both lectures and tutorials. But I have no idea what happened the past week! Or is it me :S I feel like sleeping/ tired all the time and I don't know what to talk to people except "very tired". Then when I'm having second thoughts about everything, my brain and ears start to work more than my mouth and I'll just keep quiet and listen. Or even 陪笑 to some extent. But who can 赔笑 - 赔偿我的笑容?

I hope this explains my anticipation, my tears on campfire night. Maybe I'm more mentally tired than physically.

Why like that? I just need a bit more faith to even jump across 163cm, to jump across all these distances. I just need to be less influenced to even listen to those songs and feel like ... ...

我以为懂得感觉是一种天分, 却忘了它也是我的缺陷

我以为懂得放感情是一种努力, 却忘了那依赖的阻碍

我有很多以为, 我是真的以为不只有我很累,

真的以为, 你也跟我一样在挣扎

I feel oddly alone in school now, I can see familiar faces everywhere but they are actually no longer that familiar anymore. I feel bad and weird when I plan to talk just a bit longer with any friend because all of them have new classmates and friends they will stick to.

I don't feel like forcing myself to fit anymore, if not I will end up as screwed up as sec1, I don't want. I really miss 401 life, when we're like special. Even though not the smartest, but doesn't the special portion sort of bond everyone together?

And actually, I miss NY raining days. But still, I kind of like rainy days.

Should we go back and see the juniors? Haha if we do I hope it rains on that day :)

Haha and writing to huihong. NY days really feel so 天真 suddenly. JC changes people so much suddenly I hope I won't be unable recognize myself anymore.

这么重感情, 所以感情这么重

等到有一天, 时间一定会给我一个答案

全世界只有我疲惫;

我的世界将被摧毁, 也需颓废真的是另一种美

ZhouJieLun :(

On a happier note, luozhixiang looks cool and cute in the icon haha :)

318

2010-12-31T06:44:00.000-08:00

#318

Sparks fly.

2010 is really very memorable, indeed. My last year in Nanyang, my last concert in NY Audi with my love-hated cca, my last-s spent with my last class in NY. I can't believe just 4 years ago I keep saying I hate NY and dislike the school system and just blamed everything else for my life which sort of sucked back then. I tried so hard to like fit in to what I thought is how a secondary school student should behave! Maybe that's why I can't really remember my life in sec 1. Because I don't have one apparently.

I think I'm very blessed to meet so many different people, really. Secondary 2 is seriously my turning point, I suddenly feel like I can do it, and I really did work very hard to earn a place in 301. :) And no matter how hard we always complain about EPGY, I would choose MSTP all over again even if time turns back. Maybe it's the last year in NY, everything feels closer to the heart, and matters much more.

紫韵筝情`10! :D Concerts > SYF! Especially when you're a sec4! Haha, went back to watch the montage again everyone really 辛苦了. I will remember the preparation and 在台上的悸动/激动 forever! And, I guess that's end of my guzheng life. I realize I like guzheng more as an ensemble because emotions collectively make music more moving! No matter how screwed up we may be haha. That's why I don't think I will pursue guzheng lesson in a short while.

快乐:其实就是这么简单,由小小的瞬间拼凑而成

衷心感谢出现在我生命的每一个人,每一个灵魂,

在那些漆黑的夜晚,照亮我卑微的人生:)

401`10, NYGZ`10, 203`08, 6E'06, everyone!

2011

我很怕,可是有你们陪我度过

317

2010-12-27T06:45:00.000-08:00

#317

There's a place out there for us.

Songs are heartbreaking. When can I stop being so vulnerable to them. The year is ending but I'm not even near 释怀. I'm watching drama after drama at night to get rid of the lonely feeling, and tried laughing at the slightest funny part. Wah, really cannot listen to all those songs at night.

大崩溃

I don't know why but I suddenly feel very empty and hollow.

期待变成无奈怎么变回期待

I feel like I suddenly lost the faith I tried building inside me.

伯牙碎琴,谁又是我的知音

Ah, this feeling won't last, I believe. 旧伤 totally killed tonight :(

"等一颗遥远的心就像要星星回应许的愿望:苦苦没有回答"

Exactly who we are is just enough.

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2010-11-30T05:31:00.000-08:00

#316

Oblivate.

Spells and charms are definitely charming, everything seems to be just easier in some sense, at least in the muggle world. Like how a person can just simply disappear from your life with oblivate, and vice versa. If I had known those would hurt me, I would have chosen to forget. And, if I had known I would hurt, I would have chosen to disappear.

Sigh, there's a reason why harry potter fantasies remain in the books and behind screens. They are just, not realistic. But dreaming don't harm?

一语惊醒梦中人；

By right it meant that the 语 is some 金玉良言 so the 执迷的梦中人 can wake up! What if it's a good and sweet dream! Why is it vulnerable to reality too. Unfair.

Was reading through letters in my drawer, and sort of find some comfort in written words. Like yeah, emotions and feelings could not be calculated by calculator and use "=" for equations.

好像自己唱了一首歌，听不听得到掌声是个考验，但其实不重要

没有后悔就好

Life is complicated enough, so I should stop confusing myself. Haha, and I realize I still express myself better in Chinese...

这次我终于看到你的眼神了;

就是简单地自己为自己着想，呼吸前的一段美丽幻想，心跳间的期待

有很多事讲天分，也有些事是讲意愿

而我看世界的角度并没有什么独特，和你和他和她一样

拍出的照片其实不漂亮，网上早已普及化

PS出的作品其实不精致，也不过就这样

说穿了，我也常常怀疑自己

有一天，我也可以像罗志祥一样躺下看天空飘下的雨滴；

突然很想去 botanic gardens/ bird park/ zoo!

On a happy note, I already have great plans on how to use the money I earned! (Aside from nice food and movies) I think I might use up everything, but well, it shouldn't matter much. Work is getting tiring, pasting up to 1000 stickers on envelopes, feels like doing CIP.

其实准备为他人付出是很幸福的；

说忘就忘，本来就不是我的天分.

315

2010-10-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

#315

Happy Halloween!

It suddenly occurs to me so badly that, I don't want to leave NY :( Maybe I'm not ready to but thinking about farewell these days make me very D: and it is as though I suddenly lose the power and reason to smile. Even though we should always look forward to the future (Like luozhixiang in the icon!), but what if the view isn't great. Maybe I'm just worrying too much, as usual.

Results were alright, or rather great I suppose, didn't expect myself to be able to perform like this given everything. It is the papers checking which make me realize that, I have really grown up. The fact that results don't really matter as much anymore is a sign? Like how in sec2 I may dwell on and on about that few marks which were lost but now I know how to congratulate myself to earn the marks one by one reflected on my paper. Taking pride? I'm quite relieved to feel that there are things which are more important and worth my care and concern beyond just marks.

And I still don't know my JC subject combinations. Peer pressure + assumptions + insecurities + questions = D: I have very mixed feelings about this, sigh, it is really very sian to memorize biology facts and chionging during exam for the essays part, but I'm not even sure whether my physics can make it and I have passion for it. I took so long to study and understand physics. Another thing is accompany, which I really really cannot figure out why.

While doing farewell gifts, it is like all the memories start replaying in my head, paper cloud once asked me why I can remember experiences and memories with people so well, I also don't know. It is definitely not that I have good memory, if not I would not have tried so hard for exams, then I realize maybe it's because those are events which touch my heart in some way or another, that's why it stays in my head for so long... ...

有时候做到一半,眼泪就这样掉下来 :/

I'm too greedy sometimes, that's why I suddenly remember the most important lesson I have learnt.

不要分开, 还想继续爱

不要分开, 为何要分开!

"天空仍灿烂, 它爱着大海"

我是天空, 你可不可以是大海!

The only thing I could do now is, put my heart and soul into farewell gifts and hope that I can be remembered by people I dearly loved.

P.S. I, ANGEL OF LIMHUIHONG, HOPE THAT SHE WILL HAVE SUFFICIENT LUCK TO SURVIVE THROUGH "DUH" QUIZ TOMORROW! EVEN IF IT MEANS TAKING SOME OF MY LUCK AWAY :)

314

2010-09-30T06:35:00.001-07:00

#314

Even he smiled.

Sometimes I really wonder, why we perceive people differently, and with the same actions, one can hold so much more meaning than the other. Both can be tears, but one just feel so much sadder and needs more concern. It's like the same stimulus, yet different response. Maybe the brain is unable to send nerve impulses to the heart to control the response.

为什么都是眼泪却不同重量?

Normally people say when you are faced with something far too many times, your heart get numbed of accommodating and responding to the stimulus. I wonder if our eyes ever get numbed for accommodation? At least you could close your eyes when you feel tired, but how to close a heart.

When we start all with all the "firsts", did it even occur to us that there may be all these "lasts". Tomorrow is Children's Day, and the last official lesson day in NY. I don't know how to feel, my 4 years eh.

I feel stronger! Even though I know how I may be fragile inside! Songs are still the most therapeutic, lyrics make all the illogical feelings logical! Just smile, smile at how foolish a thought is, how mean an assumption is, and how naive a naive thought is.

因为有可能笑着笑着，就会慢慢变快乐了.

After EOYS, I hope to catch a day to stay in school and watch it rain and shine all over again. Doing nothing but just sitting at the steps, and stone at the rain. And stone even more. Until everything in my heart can evaporate with it.

雨脆弱地淋下，痛却不说话，所以我也会很坚强

借来的都该还掉

到期了-

关上门以后就算爱你又如何?

Please remember the smile!

313

2010-08-31T07:25:00.001-07:00

#313

Can I be your candle?

To use my passion/ love and burn my energy just to provide that little more light and warmth to light up your dark night sky. But I don't want anyone to burn out. Teachers are like candles? Must be they're too hot!

These two days have been exciting! XinTong's birthday yesterday and our chocolate fondue surprise succeeded. We're super great people to make it work and the chocolate tastes super nice, that even became our lunch too. (lucky the councillors step down already) Today is teacher's day! Our teachers are so talented, like how a physics teacher can teach longitudinal and transverse waves using dance moves. Class party was fun and took lots of photos. I guess everyone just seems to treasure the last few moments as a class more because everything which is happening now just continually remind the sec4s especially how old we are and how soon it is that we are crossing over that bridge. Went back to primary school. People changed, environment changed.

Over that bridge means surviving everything. And of course welcome new "everything". Why does JC has such complicated subjects choices, I didn't even remember myself thinking so hard for sec3. Getting into 301/401 just feels like part of my life which I need to work hard towards in sec2. I don't think I can make a decision totally independent of peer influence.

Last Friday's CLEP essay test was so impactful.

众里寻他千百度，蓦然回首，那人却在灯火阑珊处

Even though I'm not writing about 爱情, or something which is absolutely close to my heart since the story is totally fiction, but I feel like crying while I write. More of mixed feelings rather than sad?

我在灯火阑珊处等你蓦然回首。

我的人生一直是笔直的，转弯是为了遇见你。

Suddenly felt quite relieved that I'm in Nanyang and get to know and love the friends I have today. I really hope that I wouldn't know when exactly I will die, maybe in 2012, so that for everything, I would not have the time to reflect and blame myself with regrets.

因为一切都回到放不开 .

312

2010-07-30T07:59:00.000-07:00

#312

Where did I go wrong?

I'm posting today because it is LuoZhiXiang's birthday! Today, I woke up later to take bus and listen to radio so that I can listen to 93.3 and the line "今天又有巨星生日了,他又会主持又会跳舞又会唱歌,祝罗志祥31岁生日快乐" :) Our minds are so powerful, for this line, and for today, my mind can be so positive and my heart so astonishingly big. Even though my nose is pretty active today, I feel "light" the moment I remind myself that today's his birthday! Power.

I grow to learn that some things in life which are meant to happen could not be stopped no matter how much efforts are injected into it. Then I suddenly understand what I have been trying so hard and tiring my tear glands continuously could not be prevented, and I guess the only thing I can do, is accept them, with a smile? I hope so.

I know dejavu will stop this time round because both you and me are different now, we will create new memories. I really do have faith in you and your choices, I know you wouldn't leave me behind catching breathlessly while you are running away. Sometimes I want to stop the pursuit because I don't think I'm worthy enough and I question myself for whether I made any mistakes which might increase this distance between us. But every time I look back and see how far all of our footsteps have carried us here, I know I will regret it if I really do stop right there. And your frequent looking backs and slowing down destroyed all insecurities instantly.

That's why, here I am, running. Running because of trust, running because of faith.

Last Friday on the bus home, for seriously the first time in my entire life, I cried so hard listening to 防盗锁 (by LZX) that I cannot even hide my tears by sleeping. Why are the lyrics so apt, they are like salt on all my open wounds suddenly and it's just fear flooding my entire mind. And heart.

琐是用来锁住最珍贵的东西.

终于领悟,我一直尝试锁的是你的心,所以你才会想逃.

所以我的心也被我反锁在内.

没有人能完完全全属于另一个人-

我不要锁住你的心了,只想锁住与你一起度过的分秒.

还有你扬起的嘴角,你的存在.

因为这对我来说,已经是很珍贵了.

Luozhixiang might not be the best singer, but some of his slow songs are really very moving. Sometimes it's really lucky that I have him as a source of happiness.

In Inception, the logic presented is that if you cannot remember the start of your dream, then you are most probably dreaming. What if I really cannot remember the start of my life? Does this means that my life has just been a dream?

What is reality?

It's when we are laughing back at all the memories we had together.

311

2010-06-27T05:28:00.000-07:00

#311

I don't need a parachute.

45 days without school pressure and then heading back to that place in less than 11 hours time makes me suddenly scared. Term 2 has been like airplanes in the night sky just like shooting stars. It is over, just like this. I cannot even remember how I managed to survive blocks and sacrifice one entire night's sleep just for some montage which not everyone sees it, but well, I'm so efficient then and I know I always put in my heart and soul for such things, maybe because I'm just desiring some form of accomplishment.

My holidays wonders!

1. Watched dramas like some addict: Fringe, GG, ID精英, 仁心解码, 美丽高解像, 法证先锋, 法证先锋2! I gave up on heroes sadly, because I really cannot remember a single thing from season 3 and season 4's pilot episode is just weird and awkward. Sigh but like you see American shows are like in seasons, so my fringe has to wait! Sigh finale episode was awesome. It's just so gross but empathy lies within it, which makes everything great.

2. Watched cool movies: Shrek, Prince of Persia, Toy Story 3, Karate Kid (Movie marathon!) It's really nice watching with different people and having nice food to accompany us.

3. Favourite lines from movies:

"The best part of today is that I get to fall in love with you all over again." - Shrek

"Let me go!" - Prince of Persia

"No owners, no heartbreaks." - Toy Story 3

"Because I cannot watch you get hurt again." - Karate Kid (Jaden smith quite cute!)

4. Indulged in fantastic food. Sausages + crepe + shilin + ice rockz with yixuan and yanchun. Crystal Jade with family. Subway cookies with Sheena. Popeye's meal thanks to yixuan's mum. Burger King a4dables (taro turnover!) @ cine. Toast Box's super nice milktea @ cine. Swensens 1-for-1 treat with huihong. Baked crumbled chewy chocolate chunk cookies with zhiyun. Last but not least, guilty chocolates plus super nice oreos from NY!

5. Find myself stuck mostly on MRT. Boon Lay to Changi to send yixuan off. Boon Lay to Eunos for ECP. Boon Lay to Somerset and vice versa for movies. My ezlink card is very tired this holiday.

So who says holidays is about homework and SIAs! (actually it is -.- )

I'm posting everything so that I can finally conclude this: I'm broke.

1 9 4 5: 谁会把整片黑夜用情书填满? 不管是飞机还是流星,我都会专心许愿.

It's just a matter of time before I will get back right on track and undergo the same cycle again. Dejavu?

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2010-05-31T07:15:00.000-07:00

#310

I'll wait forever and a day.

Things have been happening so fast that I'm not even sure what I was doing every single day, so many details to take care of, and facing the break downs, fixing everyone up, and enjoying that last minute on stage, facing the crowd and loud applause, the truth is I can't even remember what went through my mind.

I never thought I could survive this period in one piece. Academic stress, even though I screwed up some tests, but I only have myself to blame because of the lack of preparation. It got so numb, trying to stuff as much information my eyes could capture into my brains, then constantly worrying about people's birthday and concert stuff. I realized my heart and mind is not so big afterall to take care of everything I'm supposed to, or rather those which I forced myself into.

I really didn't mean to ___ the day before concert. Never really understand the feeling of "screwed up" until the rehearsal that day when all you hear is rubbish noise floating in the auditorium air, making you starting to wonder whether you are even fit to be there. Then you hear disappointed screams everywhere, awkward silences. It was so horrible, then you see people who was always so strong break down right before 60plus pairs of eyes, and another strong one who is so brave to walk up and cry with her. Before I even know it, my eyes got misty. And, when you turn around, you see everyone's the same.

Maybe its actually the precious water generated that day which made everyone more focused and created the miracle. I'm so thankful that the miracle all of us hoped for actually did materialize! At least, I did not leave behind any regrets. And I really could not play on broken string.

谢谢大家施舍的爱与关怀,我会学会感激.

已经很久没有感觉到欣慰的眼泪的流动.

我在美国已留下那么多泪水的痕迹,

不会哭了,只会珍惜能依赖在你肩膀的时光.

泪水与盐都是咸的,若在伤口上哭泣,会不会也很痛?

Good question right.

P.s. Sony headphones infinite source of contentment!

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2010-04-30T06:31:00.001-07:00

#309

False boundaries.

Are those boundaries really non-existent or am I just weaving another excuse to support my mindset and attitude again? I'm not even sure what's holding me back and affecting my emotions so much, like I could feel all those energy and passion draining out from me a little each day, which is bad for a period now.

It's dejavu, all those terrible nightmares have been haunting me again, now I'm scared to sleep because I know I could not control all those dreams and everything feels so real that I could not help wondering whether it might turn into a reality. Insecurities, lead to even more nightmares.

I prayed for a miracle but it did not materialize, maybe its the confusion of thoughts which triggered all those ___ in me, but I guess after staring at the rain in quadrangle, I feel better because the rain could cover up for all my weaknesses. Thank you.

Spent loads of time re-living memories, and feeling so contented that everything almost felt so precious and close to my heart suddenly. But I gave so much out, yet I'm not sure whether my input would generate anything. Why is is that our heart yearn for a reply for every questions! What about the beauty of questions left unanswered, and words better left unsaid!

401 started countdown to US, and excitement is definitely building up. BUT, why can't I feel it. I'm now constantly reminded that concert's (n-2) days away! I'll pray damn hard for a miracle on 15th May. It will happen right. Miracles wouldn't disappoint me twice.

忽冷忽热，我怕我太过悲伤于冷酷中；我害怕我太兴奋于热烈中.

两者之间的平衡点我始终很难琢磨.

我喜欢南中的下雨天：

它提醒我的心跳声，

它告诉我它的悲情，

它酝酿着朴实纯真，

它覆盖了我的伤痕.

谢谢很多，抱歉也不少.

如果那天你看到我哭，不要问我为什么.

我想你不会想要知道我所害怕给的答案.

P.s. Nice present for yanchun! ;D (sheena, jaslyn and I really very cool!) (upload photo next time if I remember)

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2010-03-22T02:05:00.001-07:00

#308

I've been on the brink, so don't let me disappear-

I finally realized the sense of urgency to post and update this blog before it just rots, or that I could not communicate my thoughts through this portal anymore.

Term 1 and March holidays and Graces are over! Generally, term 1 passes quite fast, even though I find myself slacking loads continuously also! Still, since it's only the start, it's not that bad. I mean like term2 has loads more things: block tests, SPA-s, concert`10, New York trip! :D Maybe I'm being pessimistic, but I'm really very scared that I will die this term ):

Graces talks are very sian, it's just a mass session of camwhore for nanyang girls! Anyway, after it I realized 美丽是要付出惨痛代价 and that 我还不习惯那样的我. I don't really like going to function dinners and eat with all those rules, and having to keep reminding myself to sit up straight/ open mouth properly! Haha, my napkin keep dropping onto the floor! D:

Luozhixiang is finally coming to Singapore for his concert! But it falls on 22nd may and I'll be in US already. D: D: 难道真的无缘与他碰面? D:

Oh yea, I went Singapore e-awards @ marina bay floating platform! It's quite enjoyable, because saw quite a few celebrities and singers, and I saw SHINee! (haha so many people jealous of this -.- ) Xiao gui looks quite shuai suddenly, and 林宥嘉's 说谎 live is damn good! 很催泪 D:

I'm actually quite scared of guzheng concert also D: When I'm in lower secondary, I always feel that I do not need to play that well since I have all the pro seniors to rely on! And I used to think I'm quite good, listening to music wise. =.= Like I thought I could pick out the dynamics all quite accurately and "feel" very well! So I once thought I play with lots of emotions! Especially concert`08. What a joke haha D: Now all the seniors gone.

Last friday's practice I was like the only part 2 in my area throughout the whole practice so I feel like I'm solo-ing and any mistakes made it's so apparent that I develop fear in playing any louder, seriously. And I 遥指 until my whole arm ache ): What's emotions D: No matter how much I feel inside, how to transpose this feeling to my fingers when I can't even play properly now! My playing is so horrible now, but hopefully it'll get better! 这将是我最后一次站在秀梅大会堂的舞台上，concert的每一秒都是我在那舞台上的倒数. 我可以!

I'm filled with insecurities again! But I will learn to self talk myself out of everything, and maybe I should act more mature now and accept things because thing/ people might not be willing to change for me.

隔着一段距离，至少我还可以听到脉搏。

缩短的距离，我却害怕踩到之间的地雷。

有时希望自己是聋子，适当地相信别人的话语；

我可以借给你我的耳朵，请说。

我要听你说，能不能告诉我？

试试对镜子说，看我自己懂不懂.

Sorry, 我很害怕我听不懂!

化为一丝丝细雨，打在窗口上，然后在玻璃上画满伤痕.

Follow me, follow me, falalalala! ~

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2009-12-31T06:01:00.001-08:00

#307

Last but not least -

I realized, no matter how hard everyone is promoting world peace and save the earth, a day when no war and people stop killing trees is impossible. This is because in whatever idealistic thoughts we hold, there are loopholes everywhere for reality to attack, and soon everything will fall apart. So, I will not hope for such unrealistic stuff anymore. It's not that I do not believe in fairytale endings, it's just that I believe fairytale don't exists for us to use it as an excuse to cover up for our own stupidity. :)

With love, 2009

I suppose if a picture speaks a thousand words, this picture could speak a million :)

2009 passed ridiculously fast, I have so many "thank you" and "sorry" to say to everyone. But I guess my picture could do it for me right! While doing this I sort of think about the entire year again in my mind, and even though how crap it might have been, I should still be thankful that here am I, breathing, and typing.

As usual, thank you 301`09, 203`08, NYGZ, family, everyone. More or less, everyone contributed to this dynamic year.

My wish for the new year is simple. It's not that I want to aim to be happy, it's just that I hope I could treat myself and people around me better. Especially family. Even though things got kind of weird and awkward. We will pull through right. Or rather I will adapt right.

我希望明年我可以把自己的愿望星星送给关心我的人.

2009的死亡，象征着另一个诞生.

所以不管近年多么凄凉，它象征着温暖的到来.

要期待;

2010

I welcome you with open arms :)

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2009-12-27T04:33:00.001-08:00

#306

If you ever feel like letting go,

I won't let you fall.

We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you till the hurt is gone.

I went to read majority of my posts these days, and I do admit that my posts got super gloomy this year. Especially livejournal. Maybe its the excessive usage of Chinese. So hard to strike a balance, sigh. Like languages marks -.- So, I told myself, those kind of posting style is not exactly healthy. (to post and to read) Though I always stop to ponder how come I could write those chinese words that time. XP

Okay random statuses:

Star movies is great today! Bedtime stories + XMEN2 :D
R&R 65% done. (-.-)
Food trail to end 2009 :)

Christmas always seems like so

me wake up call for me, like the fact that 2009 is ending finally hits me, then thoughts of secondary4 starts to flood my brains. GAH. Since secondary 1 till now, I always thought its so great that I'm not oldest and a sec4, no idea why but I always pity them. Haha, so next year I will pity myself. =.= and graces -.- and guzheng concert. -.- sec4 = most responsibilities. ):

Its not that I'm not a responsible person. It's just that I don't like being so responsible. Next year is filled with so many uncertainties, probably because this year ended vaguely too. It's so weird right, seeing your classmates after 2 months break, I don't know if anyone changed? Then blah blah happens, then blah blah blah develops, then all the craps start again. D: So sian, when you try to talk some sense but nobody listens. And I don't know why I bother to even care, it's not even my business. Quite stupid, I'm like exposing myself to lies attack, until the end of the day I'm the one who got the most number of scars and still embracing the attacks. Haha, if only I listen to my brain who should ignore the heart. D<

NEVERTHELESS, there's something to look forward to in 2010:D

My heart is calling out for me to pre-order to get the 80pages of photos of him in new york. But urgh. My financial status is kind of depressing.

Anyhow, SAVE MONEY$$ or -ahem-birthday-ahem-. HAHA!. wonder who reads this :)

Like luozhixiang for one year already! :D First anniversary XD

The grass is getting greener each day,

So we will make all the right moves,

together right?

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2009-12-14T18:56:00.000-08:00

#305

The finishing line is diminishing.

I guess since December is the holidays month so I should post more to compensate for some of the months with missing posts.

Went to see a doctor for the first time this year. Being all sick, dizzy, having headache every second sort of stop me from thinking so much, because when I try using my brain it hurts so much. Every now and then, we are just waiting for something to replace as painkillers to get us through the night.

Hmm, actually most of the time when I type/ write stuff (esp. chinese) I sort of followed the conventional, meaning that words form in my mind before the emotions set in. Only for those precious 3% my emotions would form words in my mind.

Back from pri. school class chalet, what strikes me the most is that all of us have changed. 我们都长大了. And now when I look at the people I once spend so many years with previously, I feel that everything is different. That's why I suddenly don't know how to act in front of them. Superficial, yes.

然后在回家的地铁旅途中，我无法闭上双眼入眠，我想了很多。

“不要怪我没有跟你说真心话，它早已被我收藏在飞机划破天空的那一瞬间，只是你一直都听不到”

And then I finally figured out a reasonable explanation to the complicated emotions.

两个人的相识中间存在着一个火车轨道。每一站都有一盏闪烁的灯火，照亮漆黑的夜晚。然而我乘坐着火车迈向你内心的终点站，当路过每一站时，灯火会随着时间的脚步熄灭了。然后我发现越认识你，我的生命变得越来越黑暗。内心的怪兽开始在人生中肆无忌惮地散播孤独，体内的水分也增加，聪明地从人的心窗-眼睛流下，兴奋地想看看这新奇的世界。

我很怕，在这痛苦急速蔓延的火车里，我想要下车。

People say life is like a marathon, people who persevere would make it to the finishing line and people who give up will just be disqualified from the race of life.

What if my finishing line disappears? Then why am I still running?

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2009-12-01T00:26:00.000-08:00

#304
The edge of desire

This is supposedly november post which came late. Back from Taiwan but it's quite stupid to post about it when so many other people did on their blogs/ lj and you can see facebook spammed with pictures of crazy nanyang girls supposedly enjoying their stay overseas. It came strongly to me that all these photos and tagging are just trying to show the whole world how happy you are and how cool it is that you are in such an awesome trip. Realness?

S.H.E. 成功地锁住时间，让感动蔓延；我却丢失了时间的锁头，时间的嘲笑声持续在空气中蔓延。

五月天因为知足的快乐让他们能够忍受心痛；我却忍受了心痛，却从来不知足。

林宥嘉没有说谎，对他心爱的人他从来不用假装；我却对我最亲爱的人作出伪装，请告诉我这不是说谎，只是保护秘密的守护天使。

周杰伦没有理由也能自己走；我却是可怜的地球一直围绕着我的太阳，若我消失太阳还是会绕，因为太阳的光芒洒满在那么多星球上，我微不足道的存在只是稀薄的空气。

Tank因为受伤所以欣赏伤口的漂亮；我却一再为漂亮的伤口包扎却跌倒在伤口上，然后持续受伤。

林俊杰突然累了，因为已经撑着撑到麻了；我是渐渐地累了，因为撑着撑到伤口越刺痛着。

黄靖伦在在乎的人未来缺席就好像一本剧本未完待续；在乎的人却持续迟迟不肯出现在我的生命里。

罗志祥一直都会在第二顺位等着深爱的人；我却好像一直是你的第二顺位等待被降职。

张芸京跪着哭泣她无能为力；我却有着无穷的能力但你从不为我哭泣。

张韶涵再多的爱也不够，不够成为超完美伤口；我有很多的伤口却没有这么多的爱。

梁静茹的崇拜被挥霍了，所以他存在在爱人之外；我的崇拜也被挥霍了，我却还是存在在他人之存在。

张惠妹越爱谁，越防备，像只脆弱的刺猬；我越爱谁，越狼狈，像只破碎的玻璃杯。

苏打绿小时候的天真在他的心里长大；我却渐渐丧失童年的童真。

蔡依林终于看开爱回不来，两人面前太多阻碍；我遇到那么多阻碍，却一直期盼爱会转过头来。

“再给我两分钟，让我把记忆结成冰”
再给我多一点时间，让我把心酸融化为辛酸的回忆

Because I acknowledge my insignificance, and going to taiwan only intensifies this inferior side. It's okay, it's just that I'm scared that you'll forget me.

但是有时候我宁愿你曾经忘记我，证明我在你生命里出现过。
然后再紧记我。不要抛弃我。依赖是阻碍？

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2009-10-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

#303
one of us, one of them.

What does October stands for? Exams (-.-) and mei nv's getting-old-episode! How exciting!

DISCLAIMER: I'm a big fat liar ):
"Victoria is the most beautiful woman I ever witness in my entire life so far, every time I look her in her eyes, she took my breath away. Her straight, silky long hair and smooth skin makes her the diva of many. If you would like to be her guy, join in the queue! But do note, her suitors could orbit in the milkyway for a thousand of times!"

Happy birthday fat! (I know you love me right! :D )

Watching so many episodes of heroes, I grew to be very scared of what mankind has to offer. Ya right even though stuff like heroes and xmen are all just FICTION, but I seriously think it is just portraying the side of human which we fail to master the courage to face. There are people out there who are able to manipulate everything, people's actions; there are people out there who can heal as fast as they hurt and fail to feel anymore.

It's quite scary because everyone started using "Saving the world" as an excuse to explain all their unreasonable acts and doings which they claim to be politically and morally upright. Trying to act hero, huh?

I am never a hero, and I never will be one.

P.s. xintong hasn't contact me for days ): I hate getting my hopes up when I see inbox but failing to see what I want.

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2009-09-12T23:46:00.000-07:00

#302
the honesty's too much in this mad world

I'm going to make this post as interesting as possible. Do you trust my words?

To start off, looking out of my window and feeling the September breeze, I would share how you could describe friends in 9 numerical numbers.

Friends, is one big word to comprehend. Once upon a time, when we were both young, smiles blossomed on our faces, just like how flowers do in the garden backyard. We were sitting under the old oak tree, singing childish songs for one another, and when I count to five in the hide and seek game, I know where you will always be, the little corner where we hide all of our smiles away. Then I see us six years down the road in 7eleven, exclaiming how we have ate countless sandwiches together. That's when I know, I have 9 reasons why I love you as a friend. I hope you could see the reasons.

Secondly, here are 9 facts about me now!
1. I blog on monthly basis.
2. I always act deep XP
3. I own a livejournal and I forgot why.
4. I'm falling in love with a person online :D
5. I am very affected by what people say.
6. I watch disney channel from 4.30pm to 6pm every weekend:) (Hannah Montana, Suite Life, Jonas)
7. I hope I could cry now.
8. I want to meet luozhixiang.
9. I share a conversation with Fortune Teller Genius on Fb.

Yay whee, September breeze blows my holidays away so quickly~~ Haha, so excited to go back to school! Excited to face the harsh reality and expectations and people again!

"You need to find a motivation." Haha, the world is crazy.

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2009-08-14T07:23:00.001-07:00

#301

存在

扬起嘴角显示的笑容，
是掩饰心痛无法从容，
口是心非的用心良苦，
答复却这么如此残酷。

闭上眼睛听着音符，
试着让灵魂被驯服。
感觉自己踏出一步，
才发现自己在圆圈里打转-最终还是回到了原点。

存在在两人的背影里，
虽然我还有自知之明，
但是眼泪疾苦的挣扎，
退后是我最后的潇洒。

曾经被影响学会敢爱敢恨，
曾经被影响学会疗治伤痕，
曾经被影响学会笑容满面，
许多曾经如今已灰飞烟灭。

也许缘分已尽，
无法再次靠近。
故事结局怎样，
我还是不想讲。

ADD ON.
My life is so full of drama now. This is like a distant nightmare which I keep telling myself that is untrue. I hate myself to how I change and shape myself to fit into the mold available.

The laughing should stop. The tears should stop. The awkwardness should stop. The silent approach should stop. I don't think I have enough energy to approach anything anymore.

No, really I can never get over it. I should stop thinking that I could, I will, ONE DAY. Because it is true that I can be over it one day and the next day is all right back to where I start. I should stop comparing to last year, because life moves on.

I really hope I'm doing great salvaging the "to-be-lost". yeah right

DELETE ):

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2009-07-10T22:44:00.001-07:00

#300
deadlines. conclusions. closure.

为什么我最害怕的事都一一发生了?

I think I'm trying to salvage something broken, because I fear experiencing the feeling of losing something which I have been trying to hold on to for the whole time. Hope this won't slip through my fingers like sand.

I thought I always love Maths. Solving equations, feeling the thrill, and having the confidence that "I can do it!". I really don't want a day to come where I feel that it's a burden and I don't enjoy the learning process anymore.

Life's a cosine graph. Life's a linear graph. Life's a quadratic graph. Whatever it is, please give me some solutions.

SIGH. please assassinate me if I don't finish SMP Facebook Application by Sunday.

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2009-06-27T04:01:00.001-07:00

#299

I have finally fulfilled my wish of going to the beach. It was great.

Falling down is always a painful experience for me. It seems like when I'm young, ignorance or innocence grab away my fears, the fear of falling, the fear of crying. As I grew up, with the sheding of these two elements, I developed many fears. To protect myself.

IRONY. Because something meant to protect me hurts me even more. Deep down inside.

To be frank, I am afraid of falling, I am afraid that my emotions will overwhelm me and I could not hold myself back. It's like controlling your emotion into a mine, only to wait for it to explode, and cause more destruction. I don't want that to happen! Because I don't want to hurt people around me just because I'm irresponsible with my own emotions.

URGH. Felt like a weak weak porcupine. I must learn to accept the fall, even though it cuts through my skin and need half a bottle of medicated oil to make the pain more torturous.

If I can survive this pain, I can survive anything, can't I?

I may not have find my inspiration and myself back at the beach yesterday, but the journey on the bike, the falling down because of thoughts drifting away, sitting under dripping water air con, going to see the sunset just to know that the sun sets in the west not the east, makes me feel, relaxed, very relaxed suddenly.

Life is like that right. Always on the move on the bike, and sometimes you find yourself at the bottom of everything suddenly, crying in pain because it actually hurts, feel the constant pressure dropping on you, and we may not always get what we want. Whatever happens, even if you have embarked on the wrong trail/ made the wrong decision afterall, what happened has happened. Just got to enjoy life like that.

Yea, I'm learning to enjoy life now.
Thank you yanchun and eleanor for the amazing day yesterday! :D
(Thank you so much also because you gave me a good reason to fight and never walk away)

&This is the reality and I know that I don't want to use photoshop layers to cover up all the flaws anymore. For once, the truth is amazingly beautiful.

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2009-06-16T03:17:00.001-07:00

#298
seconds, hours, so many days.
What if my chances are already gone, started to believe that everything went wrong. But you gave me one good reason to fight and never walk away.

"Only when doing MRP, I could feel the long lost adrenaline rush sensation, and the accomplishment warming my heart."

Every step I climb another mountain.
I will make it through the pain, weather the hurricane.

I can go higher. I can go deeper.
There are no boundaries

So, here I am, still holding on.

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2009-06-10T20:34:00.001-07:00

#297

caterpillar in the tree,
how you wonder who'll be
can't go far but you can always dream

Hey. Blogging in point form again. (:

1) Philosophical line: What doesn't kills you make you stronger.
No, my point of view is that events/ people/ stuff which does not kill you, will result in wounds which may or may not heal in time, leaving a scar behind. The main reason why we felt "stronger" in a sense afterwards, is we are just all immune to this pain and we will have more protective layers. At the end of the day, or end of this life, what we are may just be like an onion, with many many protective layers built throughout the years of life, but we can't find anything inside. We have lost the last chance to feel again.

2) DISNEY HAPPINESS
What one thing which troubled me is that some superficial movie critics always complain on newspaper reviews on disney productions: "storyline and plot is expected" , "slapstick comedy", "only amuse young children", "another typical disney-movie", then with a 3 - 3.5 stars rating. I feel that disney is far too great for them to categorize. What disney represent is not "new movie stunts and plot" which will feed these bunch of reviewers and shut their mouths up, disney actually reprsents dream, happy ever afters, hope, faith, childhood. Even though how cliche such storylines maybe, but what disney brings is laughter and the cheerfulness that can bright up one's day. Who are these bunch of reviewers to get the importance of disney.

gogo disney!:D

3) The Climb
life's a climb, but the view's great. It feels like I'm 10feet off the ground, but yet 10 feet up more to climb. I'm just hanging there, unable to progress, and yet there's a possibility that somebody will come and cut my string. Is it too late to apologize? I need to get my drive back. I need to get my motivation back. I need to get everything back. I feel like a walking, living hollow shell. Just, many many protective layers.

Bright side, tomorrow's playmax(:
我要去海边! 我要去海边! 我要去海边!
找回最初的感动，找回最初的自我。

你愿意陪我去海边走一走吗?

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2009-04-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

#296

Sorry my posts these days had been kind of weird and "off" in a sense because "off" is exactly what I feel these days. Felt seriously numbed by failures to feel the sadness (disappointment still very prominent though), numbed by success to feel the high high feeling. ah what happen to my life D:

okay anyway, here's a "normal" post and updates of my life. In point form because lazy to organise my thoughts.

1) went for CHATS and realised how easily for minority to be neglected and forgotten, throughout the forum, felt like I suddenly own an invisible cloak. Basically, just treat it as though I am carbon dioxide and has disappeared from the world temporary for one week. I really do not want to remember much from this experience.

2) cip with zhiyun for 3 hours and more makes me realises that I miss her (and stupid victoria) a lot ): and the atmosphere in 203`08!

3) fell sick like 2 days before SYF and shivered in cold under the hot Sexy Singapore Sun! ):

4) watched 百分百 which I have not been watching for so many weeks. Xiaozhu still makes me laugh(:

5) syf on Monday 20/04/09. Felt a rush of pride and ____ for the 3rd time in two weeks and sheena witness this SUPER RARE phenomen all three times. For the first time in my life, I saw sheena ____ and she was also the one who triggered the excess water droplets in my body.

6) went art museum and this makes me conclude that I have enjoyed by two visits to two different museums these two weeks. I have fallen in love with air conditioned museums, the emotions of art are so huge and ovewhelming! And yes, my one-and-only in the future won't mind visiting museums with me on one lazy afternoon and having sips of coffee at some cafe(: romantic yeah?

7) gold with honours(: for the first time I feel that results really don't matter. the "honours" just doesn't amount to the sense of pride I felt.

8) bought yanchun's super unique present!

personalized mug(:

9) anticipating week 7. 7 things to face.

I had been trying to overlook the signs but the signs seem to be too big for me to miss them.

gotta keep trying, gotta keep my hands held high;

Always gonna be an uphill battle, sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
its the climb.

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2009-04-15T21:50:00.000-07:00

#295
yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky;
skies under hwa chong is like the sky on top of the froggy's well.

Issue Addressing: Carbon Dioxide
Chemical Bonds: Covalent
Elements involved: Carbon, Oxygen

Dear mother earth,

Can you be more tolerant towards carbon dioxide? They are so active and friendly and enthusiastic towards coming to get closer to you yet human and man think that they are all waste and the result of all the problems on Earth, like greenhouse effect. But carbon dioxide is so innocent!

Human always think oxygen is their live, carbon dioxide is the killer. But they provide plants with the energy to move on (photosynthesis) and prove themself a member of the "air" we are breathing in. Living things and even non-living things like candle abandon carbon dioxide, are all eager to get rid of the carbon dioxide in their lungs to embrace the new fresh oxygen. However, has it ever occured to anybody that one must appreciate the leaving of carbon dioxide before welcoming the new element?

Carbon dioxide is always left in the dark. We treat them for granted. They are there, they should be there, they will always be there. What we always do was to shower oxygen with care and concern and leave out all the rest. Because oxygen is important, they may not be there, they will not always be there.

Carbon dioxide is magical. They breathe life to plants. Carbon dioxide has oxygen atoms in it too, so can you please please accept it?

Yours sincerely,
me,me,me

我们像是二氧化碳，你们并没有把我们珍惜在眼里。
被盲目的双目，看不到真情的存在；
被掩盖的双耳，低档不了流言蜚语。

我只想，好好，好好，好好地睡一觉。
明天我会恢复原来氧气的位置。

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2009-03-30T02:21:00.001-07:00

#294
I'm a hazard to myself;

Basically things are really not what they seem to be. Firstly, holidays don't feel like holidays; SMP shows improvement but time is still tight; survived through first MRP meeting but research seems vague; Got the edited chinese proposal but giving it a start is not easy.

I don't know whether I could survive this. Perhaps I could use the time posting her to do one more Maths question, try to understand one more bio fact, try to memorise one more chemical formula, try to study one more reason for conflict in Sri Lanka, learn one more chinese term, find out one more definition to an english word, draw another graph for physics kinematics. There are so much to do, yet starting almost killed me.

Yes, this is going to be hard. It's again time to pick up those fragments and piece them up together so that I could lead a complete life.

On a lighter note, people are nicer than ever!(:
至少还有你们:D

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2009-03-06T04:09:00.000-08:00

#293
blanks, images, memories flashed pass when the peaceful seas broke out into sorrowful cries, splashing their tears against the rough sand, and the abrasion washed off the footsteps left on the ground.

I have been thinking a lot these few days, maybe it's the cool land breeze that night which sparked off my racing mind, or is it the life temporary without school work burden and commitments. Recalling my life, people who left footprints in mine, people who are just passerby.

Through obs, I keep getting the frequent occurrence of a sudden rush of emotions, and this in turn evolved into water droplets which by accident took shelter in my eyes. It's always hard to eat this emotion up, making sure it could be digested (it's not as easy as digestive biscuit). Be it cries of excitement, accomplishment, realisation, sorrow, or regret, it's still an experience which made impact.

the song which best describes my feelings/reflections through out the whole camp:崇拜
it's really great and amazing and touching at the same time when you finally find with a song with lyrics describing the whole predicament, melody which touches the soul. :D

I'm glad that some still stay by my side, while I felt that I have lost control over some. The grateful thing is, our basic relationship is still there and I hope we could still smile at each other in the future and always.

你的姿态，你的期待，我存在在你的存在；你以为爱，就是被爱，你挥霍了我的崇拜

风筝有风，海豚游海，我存在在我的存在；所以明白，所以离开，所以不再为爱而爱

my goal is to 自己存在在你之外

活着，还是为了开心:D

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2009-02-14T01:57:00.000-08:00

#292
VALENTINE'S SPECIAL POST 14/02/09

Due to how rare I post here, I should post a Valentine's post to not disappoint my readers (if they exist)!:D Thank you Gee Ling for being my 2hours Valentine Date(:

The best Valentine Present to award myself:D

梁静茹《静茹&情歌别再为他流泪》
Finally in my hands, after one week.

听着她的歌，有莫名的感动。

The lyrics of her songs are fabulous! Talking about the different phases of love, a definitely great album to own! And the album is pretty! The lyrics book, free impact sweets and everything! Felt so loved!
未来，更要愉快的生存

The reason why I feel like flying to taiwan now!

I want to go this concert like crazy ohman! Isn't it sweet that it's held on Valentine's? (:

只懂得被爱是悲哀，懂得去爱才值得青睐

我的风笛手一定会为我弹奏属于我幸福不灭的旋律

你是不是我的风笛手？(:

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2008-12-30T11:00:00.000-08:00

#291
As some would say, the end is yet another beginning.
When we walk till the end, it's the end.
It's just whether we choose to turn at some crossroads and start a near journey.

In 2008, I have / full of:
A-ones
Better results
Cconcert`08
Distinction for grade 7 guzheng
End-of-years
Fps
Gong Yuan
Happiness
Irritable
Jaslyn
Kang Xi Lai Le! (康熙来了)
Luo Zhi Xiang!:D (罗志祥)
Music
Nanyang
Olympics
Photoshop
Quizzes
Rie
Sheena
Temper (lousy)-.-
Untidy
Victoria
Wednesday fried food
Xin Tong
You(:
Zhiyun

2
03'
0
8
all the alphabets!;D

After collecting all the 小幸福, it's time to bring some 小幸福 to others' lives.
Thank you Nanyang (203`08, guzheng), primary school friends and family and everybody for appearing in my life, although 2008 has been filled with many fortunate and unfortunate events, I thank everybody for giving me a great 2008(:

byebye 2008;

and

Happy

2009!;D

总是走到尽头，才会选择转弯到其他的道路上

总是回想过去，才能更好的展望我光明的未来

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2008-12-26T04:06:00.000-08:00

#290
current mood: amused
current music: 幸福不灭 by Show Luo

Belated Christmas! Caught a post Christmas movie with primary classmates today!(: BEDTIME STORIES! great movie!:D made me laugh like crap, the storyline is cool and it tickled my FUNNY bone! people should catch it! very amusing to keep my day being cheerful!:D and oh yes, salty popcorn is so much better than sweet ones, salty serve as a great appetizer while sweet just turn them down-.-

26th December. One Day After Christmas. = 潮男正传 and 心跳 are in stores! like OMGOMGOMG!!

潮男正传 by 罗志祥
I almost loved every single song in his album haha! Should consider buying it. And he's like super funny in bai fen bai, shuai (look at the cover), cool, hot, filial! ;D hahah the passion for him is back! uncover it since 篮球火.
shuai shuai shuai shuai shuai shuai shuai. :D :D :D :D Just realise all his old songs are songs which are like I-hear-them-over-radio-for-so-many-times-but-can't-know-the-title .

I don't think he would ever sing "I Don't Dance" (HAHAH!-.-)

心跳 by 王力宏
I though it was only an okay, heh >< 心跳 is great! but the others are like less appealing! well, I like 落叶归根more with 改变自己 but anyway, 心跳 is still worth our appreciation;D

with so much great music, why would be earth be quiet and lonely?
with so much to see, so much to hear, why would the earth be boring?
with so many things to do, with so many things to start, why am I still stuck in the past?

with so many expectations, the least I could do now, is not let them down.
and most importantly, do not let me down.

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2008-12-23T04:50:00.000-08:00

#289
things I'll never say
the rest is unwritten
current mood: as calm as curry
current music: Out From under - Britney Spears

Unbelievable.

The best word to describe my current mindset. I have finally managed to code a skin properly myself. (yes, there are resources) but still, I stare at all the codes and trying to make some sense out of them long enough for my eyes to go blurry. Thank god, I managed it. Three cheers! and the best Christmas present! *yes somehow these days I'm mad about Miley Cyus with all her related graphics!;D

Summary of my life:
Good news: I got a new phone!;D
Bad news: not G900=.=
Good news: at least it's some phone
Bad news: no free caller id for three months
Good news: unlimited sms-es
Bad news: failed aural. (expected)
Good news: got distinction for gz grade 7

basically, life has taken a good turn and there are actually far more great news! And, DISTINCTION DISTINCTION DISTINCTION! (omgomgomgomg)

I thank everybody for allowing me to be me now!
will update this page more often as foreshadowed in the previous post:D

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2008-12-17T17:33:00.001-08:00

#288
最幸福的事，当过你的天使
在你的未来缺席，像是一出剧本未完待续
突然好想你，你会在哪里？
searching the impossibilities

hello world! I have been watching hongkong shows for the past few days, because being stuck at home and stuck with boredom, I can easily finish one show (like at least consist of 20episodes) in 2 days. Also, I've been watching those shows set in the olden times, where the characters speak in cheem language, especially in four words four words. But the shows are quite enlightening, no?

Lesson learnt no. 1) 做人不要太执着
yes I have learnt that I should not totally hooked up onto the phone I desired but open up to more other choices, nevertheless, I no need some expensive phone because I normally neglect it anyway.

Lesson learnt no. 2) 人算不如天算
I never expected the phone I wanted to be out of stock, but still, the truth is that it is. Maybe is because I'm destined to get other phones?

Lesson learnt no. 3) 笑口常开，好彩自然来
:D

anyway, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Uw9Z70p2MlI
watch the mv! it's 最幸福的事 by 梁文音, super touching! cried at the end! ohman D: the first mv to trigger my tears!(:

预留伏笔，让未完成从容继续

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2008-12-06T01:07:00.000-08:00

#287
I thought I lost you when you ran away to try to find me,
I thought I'll never see your sweet face again

and now, I've got you! I thought I lost you.

The best song to describe my day is: Bad Day. The only good thing in a bad day is that I got a pretty nice skin done. That's why I'm back to blogger with my previous posting speed. (MUAHAHA) I'm considering submitting this skin! (winks) but it's like, you rarely find banner skins featured in skins of the day, because sometimes they rather feature some twit skins which I could find a million reasons to disagree with it. (note: exaggeration technique used)

I feel materialism suddenly! uncool huh. I went to recontract my phone today, guess what, my desired phone is outofstock. all the singtel shops in the whole of singapore do not have the models, whereas starhub has! okay I should be patient to wait for one more week, if not I would have to change line. hah. Shan't complain. its unhealthy, no?

Went to watch BOLT! yesterday, enjoyable movie trip;D but not very enjoyable for my pocket huh?

(ALL I CAN THINK OF NOW IS MY PHONE!)(shuddup, stop being so materialism)

till the time when I see some interesting stuff to post, ciao:D

286

2008-11-10T02:43:00.001-08:00

#286
THE DO'S AND DON'TS OF BLOGGING

Maybe its an illusion, but after spending like almost up to 2 years blogging and reading blogs, I've compiled a list of do's and don'ts, I seriously think people should read it through at least once, because nothing speaks better than experiences.

Do-
1) Credit People
If you have used others' icons, images, content, layout, it's basic courtesy to credit. It's either you are a total great blogger who is thankful for all the resources and stuff which appear on your blog or you could be like a total jerk and ignore other people's efforts.

2) Blog in paragraphs
For the sake of readers' eyes, it will make you totally cool and nice if you could blog in paragraphs, and not strain and stress your readers' eyes with the chunks of words sticking together, if you do not know, it will make the readers go all dizzy and have a bad experience reading your blog. So, play on the safe side, organise your thoughts and break up the chunks into paragraphs.

3) Blog meaningful content
I'm totally sick of people blogging about their everyday life. Like, "English is boring, geog the teacher so sian." I admit I once do it too, but I find it totally meaningless. So for example, in a paragraph, you could summarise your school encounters. for example, you could say: "School is pretty boring, but I guess all of us have to live with it, anyway exams are round the corner so it's better to listen." and not rant on about each lesson what you do! I would prefer blogs who share their thoughts about shows/ issues/ movies. Blog, is nice because its your thoughts, and not telling the worldwide web how boring school is. Seriously. (I think gongyuan's blog is kind of interesting(: at least it has some purpose)

Don't-
1) Use black as background and white as font colour
I'm totally aware that some the blogskins are designed in such a way, but I don't quite encourage such layout colour scheme, because, seriously, it's a pain in the eye. Try staring at it for more than 5minutes, you could almost feel the dizzyness and see black and white lines, and yes, I'm totally not aggrevating and exaggerating the situation, it's that bad, so if your blog has suck eye pain colour scheme as what I have described, I suggest a change. I bet blogskins.com still have tonnes of other nice blogskins with eye friendly colours.

2) Blog about "inside joke"
Since it's an "inside joke" what's the use of stating it and saying it? It's sort of like treating the readers like some fools and make them feel stupid and distant away from you because they could not understand the whole inside joke thing. It's pretty pointless, isn't it?

3) Blog about results.
Firstly, it's not like your results are the visitors' concerns and issue. One or two lines like: "Exams results are satisfactory, still room for improvement" totally beats "My maths only 95! I'm so careless, I should have gotten my 5marks." Nobody is interested in knowing your marks. The publication of such marks and results only make you seem like some snobbish kid. (I did that last time and I totally regret it). Secondly, it's super insensitive. Mind you that blogger is world wide.

4) Include Vulgarities in post
oh this is the worst among all the don't-s. vulgarities are totally not pleasant to the eye and it shows nothing but that you are just some ignorant kid who lacks vocabulary to the extent that vulgarities is all you could use when you wanted to express a state of anger, displeasure, or unhappiness. It doesn't make you cool (or whatever the daring part), but it reflects you as somebody who is not properly educated and one with no respect to the readers. So stop, because it's not the latest trend please.
*disclaimer: I'm not talking about using words like shit and walao here, because they are far too common to be called vulgarities anymore. I'm refer to the one which has the same starting letter as 'food' and some others.

5) Blog emo stuff
I hate reading blogs with all the small letters (even though I do that last time), It's such a childish act, by scolding this whole chunk of craps and vulgarities to someone, which being the readers totally do not know. It pratically makes the readers waste their time there looking at what you have to say about this anonymous guy/woman somewhere out there. It just make your blog being labelled as "uninteresting".

6) Use twits
Once again, it's painful to the eyes, making it unpleasant. Some people even say that blog could help us improve our english expression, but blogging in twits surely won't have this effect, and typing lyk tiish ish nortx koolx worzz. (totally failed attempt in twitting) these words totally got up to my nerves. So don't use it manxxxxxx.

Anyway, the general rule to blogging is not to offend others, because that's bringing down low on yourself and it totally is not worth it.

Have fun blogging, fellow bloggers!:D

285

2008-11-03T02:15:00.000-08:00

#285
everyday 7 takes of the same old scene
bound by the laws of same routine;
the world slows down,
but my heart beats fast right now,
I know this is the part that the end starts

Just an update to what I'm doing this holidays. I plan to go on a super and endless hiatus, I'm stuck and bound by restrictions to all the designs until I felt terrible and this is not what I want ever since I started designing. After finishing PSL blogskin, I think I need a long break to recover my long lost passion.

Good news, I'm most probably creating lj for icons display!:D I'm starting to get more interested in designing icons than all those images cropping up in my mind and interrupting the flow of inspiration. I'll see how I fare as time goes on I guess.

Yes, I would study in holidays too. MOTIVATION.

[edit] MY LJ IS UP!:D
http://gravity-gap.livejournal.com/
LEAVELEAVE COMMENTS!

but I will return to blogger!:D when I made a decent skin!(:[/edit]

I can see sunset in your eyes;

284

2008-11-01T23:35:00.001-07:00

#284
I just can't take your tears;

current favourite song: I hate this part Pussycat dolls

I felt so sick staring at photoshop for the past hours deciding what and how to do PSL blogskin. I felt so uncertain! If i did icons skin it would be super easy but isn't an easy way out? BUT I can't do anything of blending the pictures together. BOO!D:

holidays have arrived! The only problem is that I have no idea how I would spend this super long period of time, it would be meaningless if I just idle everyday and watch dramas and tv and game, but what other could I do?

AMAZINGLY, I went for chinese tuition! apparently my chinese results are the lousiest among all my results! I must make sure I'm ready to take up CLEP next year. But not bad, I improved damn lot this year!:D although Mrs Tieh is quite scary, but she's still an experienced history teacher! I'm quite satisfied with history results!:D

Is it only me who think that cca is very inefficient? D: I'm tired of practising every cca when I'm not even sure whether I'm playing the right thing. cca is 3 hours, yet laoshi didn't even step in for a single second, I'm not sure where went wrong. Frankly speaking, I'm not very satisfied with the idea of steamboat. I don't know why cca suddenly turns out to be so screwed! ~~no wonder somebody is transferring cca next year~~.

P.s. Sometimes I felt like quitting too.

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2008-10-27T00:43:00.000-07:00

#283
the clock's running down.

goodness. I can't believe I just replaced my ideal life partner. Anyway, I think it would be alright if I snatch Troy/ Zac Efron from Gabriella/ Vanessa Hudgens. He's hot, going for some business degree and he could sing! :D :D :D :D

HSM3 was quite a show! Kind of typical disney channel movie just that it has so much more nice songs! But I'm quite tired of Sharpay stealing the show and somehow gabriella must return to sing some duet with Troy. I'm so sad that Kelsy and Ryan didn't sing much and develop their love story, because their voices are good:D it's always gabriella and troy who steal the limelight D<>you ZACEFRON!:D

I shall always play the safe side. I'm just being pratical. It's either I'm numbed or something! Nevermind, I shall learn to be less mean and increase my subjects percentage next year!

P.s. GONGYUAN is super pro at some arcade game called DANCEDANCEREVOLUTION! couldn't stop laughing! It's super comical! Especially when she jump!

:D

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2008-08-22T03:34:00.000-07:00

#282
the olympic spirit

The Olympics is here again. Its in Beijing this year, since the time is close to Singapore, I have been watching so many more Olympic games. Although I have come to Singapore for so many years, I still feel more patriotic towards China. My mom is talking about Olympic spirit just now, and it sort of set me thinking the definition of that word.

I thought Zhang Yi Ning and Wang Nan has shown it perfectly in all of their games. Initially, I thought they were the unbeatables. Watching the match of Zhang Yi Ning and Sinagpore's Feng Tian Wei is like having asthma. I have always loved Zhang Yi Ning, impressed in the way that she can remain calm and concentrated despite carrying the hopes of the country and so many stressful external factors. She had lost a match to Feng Tian Wei previously in March, and her bat is taken away just before the match, I thought emotionally, she would not have been as strong as her previous matches. She proved me wrong though. She's very strong inside.

Wang Nan has been my dad's favourites since long long time ago. I thought she was nice too, always being so steady and trustworthy, you can see she put in everything to every single match.

I thought that these two are the ideal partners to portray the olympic spirit. I congraulate Feng Tian Wei for her superb performance against Zhang Yi Ning, and put up a good fight. I surely believe that her Olympic jouney won't end here, her marathon is not over yet. No matter who win the table tennis women singles finals later tonight, I think both of them are winners.

"We are strong outside, we are stronger inside. It doesn't take long to win, it takes long to prepare and train."

Olympic is all about putting your best. Like how the handicapped women joined in the olympics, I was so touched by that article. Winning may means a lot, but its yourself you're competiting against.

I will beat myself.

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2008-08-02T06:12:00.000-07:00

#281

I need to find my passion back. And I need to pick up those fragments.

blogger help me.

I won't give up. GOGOGO!

I still believe in miracles!(:

280

2008-06-22T00:52:00.000-07:00

#280

holidays have been great. my holidays have been filled with movies and dramas and tvs and homework. however, I'm pretty slack this whole holiday as I sort of lose the motivation to study when I began indulging in shows which have like SEASONS which make them seemingly ENDLESS. uh I hope school can help me kick the habit? hello nanyang, I'm back.

one step a time dear.
if not you'll lose your chance to fly.

tell you what.
I might even be a rockstar:D

279

2008-05-31T06:44:00.000-07:00

#279

these days happened a lot of stuff. somehow I don't know how to craft my words to describe everything. blame my limited vocabulary.

malacca trip was rather, not that I want to admit, but empty.
but I'm confident in saying I really learn a lot, observing people. I guess i lacked those type of quiet moments (not to say I'm noisy) and tried to understand. more. beneath the eye.

jaslyn至少还有你

cca is motivating. not that practising 8hours are some great motivational experience. but the need for mastering grade 7 and 9 songs are motivating me to practice guzheng again. if not I'm never going to touch it this holiday. its the accomplishment that makes one's day doesn't it?

songs. they are even better than photos in recording down memories. like once the tune starts and the lyrics pop out. some singers and songs just stay in your heart forever.
and ever.

and ever.

有人说，一有人离别天上的星星就会掉一颗，你还要离开几次？

我很怕我没有足够的星星等你。

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2008-03-08T20:35:00.000-08:00

#278
CAMP!:D

was fun i guess. besides the fact that i slept for 16hours after camp. damn tired.
anyway, i'm too lazy to type too much but i have like around 30++ pictures. all quite random-.-
most pictures taken on first day (slack day). day 2 is mad day, day 3 is tiring day.

DISCLAIMER: DON'T KILL ME AFTER VIEWING. NC13. PICTURE-LOADED.

okay so i shall elaborate some stuff. yeap.

NIGHT TRAIL
scared myself out even before activity starts. gongyuan stoning in a corner is scary enough. i realise alicia is damn nice and cool!(: well scream like mad woman while nobody listens-.- pretty obvious who are the bonded ones. being scolded all sorts of vulgarities. well, immuned?

maybe is that my anger capacity is as much as my superwaterbottle, [from where the whole group drink water during the trail] didn't break down like others. well.
wipe the tears, drive away the fears

DRAMA
"Fabulous...." rated 5stars.
"Fantastic..." break scale of rating.
at least its class effort(: yeah maybe we didn't win in the end, but we get special commendation!;D 至少有一个肯定! anyway, congrats 204 for best drama:D
congrats wangqing for the leaders award(: congrats 203 and 211 for most creative nighttrial;D

realise jaslyn damn cute(: she laugh like so happily;D
yeah everyone is a leader. not only wangqing. i think she's brave and great in her speech.
抛下尊严，值得敬佩
heard some hurting stuff on bus. sometimes i hope i'm not on that bus.

what I don't understand is why efforts aren't all appreciated?
我宁愿相信你还是真心的
its like killing a mockingbird somehow.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SALLY BYTHEWAY!:D

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2008-02-29T02:56:00.000-08:00

#277

leap year yeap.

spent my time talking.

yeah maybe after 4 years i would update again

just take a leap of faith?

i want to leap to the best stuff ever;

276

2007-12-31T19:54:00.001-08:00

#276

2007![:

another 2007 day has come and gone away, when the happy times stay, the troubles blown away.
when tears and joy are mixed together, we could all sing the praises for them.
2007. a year. 365days. well i guess its more than that.

i did a special picture to describe everything in 2007! its not very appealing in sight, but the meaning is beautiful!

can you spot chengxin's name in it! XD

i want to thank alot people, for that wonderful year(aww) :
103`07 nanyangguzheng! nanyang!6E`06 everybody i know!

i want to tell everybody!
we have joy! we have fun! we have happiness in our hearts!;D
because if you ever keep that smile on
you're gonna go far far far![[:
because i think everybody is XINGFU
all the best for
2008![[: *screams cheers claps!*

其实还有很多话没来得及说
但时间还是继续走，不停留

我要谢谢你们；这些美好的回忆；
真的有时，有失有得

275

2007-12-30T17:50:00.000-08:00

#275
disappointment

~~sad upset unhappy depressed~~
but its the disappointment which is hanging there

the point when i saw your reply
i think i already know why
you did not even bother to try
to make things back alright

i'm disappointed. with you.
and you and you and you.

~~i think i finally understood that actually i'm nothing in all of your hearts~~
i get it.
and i'm leaving.

i think its a bless i come to nanyang afterall.
and maybe distances are the best of all.
time is the truth, thats all.

274

2007-12-30T02:06:00.000-08:00

#274
ah i never know i would not blog for so long.

busy busy busy days i guess.

GUZHENG DAY CAMP!
hahah so fun XD did alot of ridiculus things and i think guzheng should be more bonded. and i keep trying to cheat during games with thousand of lame excuses! and we played the song game, the group which couldnt come up with the next song title would have to help us move guzheng stuff. HAHAH. i think my group rocks[[: we no need to move anything! er is me, sheena, tongzhen, make and maybe others which i couldn't remember. sorry=X

FAREWELL SECFOURS
my mom is like: ONE DAY BEFORE THE FAREWELL THEN YOU PIA THE CARDS-.-
and i just keep on chionging! and then got diverted by MAJONG<3> hahah the cards turn out to be nice and creative too![[: of course since i used my brains!XD

and sec 1s performed lame jokes showcase! obviously its my idea and my printer no ink so i have to print out the outline of every word and trace them myself-.- did until 12am D: no majong D: then its like the other levels keep asking what are we doing and we decided to call our item: 天机不可泄漏, then when they ask us about the content we would say: 这是不能说的秘密. XD we are damn smart i think;D

the performance turned out to be SUCCESS! beside the fact that make answered like around 4 questions correctly-.- and my signs of PLEASE CLAP/ LAUGH and SHOUT ENCORE! work so much;D hahahha. the secfours seemed touched lah;D jiayou when you all get into JC!:D

ah i came to know this song, the tune seems so familiar, but i just can't place a finger on it.
we have joy, we have fun, we have seasons in the sun!

aww]]: they just make me think of the past, past as in when we are really like smaller kids and stuff. TONG ZHEN! lol! ah that day i'm saying tongzhen has no tong nian [childhood] and she tells me she no tong nian have tong zhen. =.=

ah i read a few juniors blogs. why do we have such different reactions towards a new school year in a new school. maybe everybody is unique i guess. probably.

because i know different people have different ways of expressing themselves, its not at all a crime or any sin to say anything different. but some times, when i look at those sentences again, something is forming! whether its a sense of familiarity or the sense of difference. and true enough, change shouldn't be a taboo. because if we don't change there would be no progress. change when its neccessary, or not to change would be destructive. maybe its the decisions which cause all the chaos in the world. WORLDPEACE.

and yeah i'm gonna change.
another summer day, had come and go away.
because each aeroplane which passed, seconds ticked by, and we just couldn't go back.
actually at that momment, nobody wanted to cry. because goodbye dosen't seems that important anymore.

sometimes i do pray;
for some things to never change.
but well, i guess time washes off everything i prayed.

273

2007-12-22T19:13:00.000-08:00

#273
this christmas, i want to make exam papers all gone by 2008.
who ya kidding?

but its good to have goals. like those standard lines:
they make you strong, they make you strive harder, they make you become better, clear vision.
blahblahblah.
okay not that i don't care. but well. goals=.=

my current one is to be able to get good grades next year. (okay that's what everybody wanted). oh but i'm gonna make my everyday spent at least fruitfully. okay maybe there wouldn't be any fruits but who cares?-.-

i feel i'm gonna neglect my scv next year [provided that it would not be cancelled till then]. not that if that ever happens i would cry like world's end. because there's always the computer/ laptop. one week. seven days. not very ideal though.

okay clearer goals.
TOP 10 THINGS I MUST MASTER BY NEXT YEAR!:
#1: does not doze off in class even if the lesson is so boring like geog or physics this year=.=

#2: find some person who could teach me geog or history because i flunked mine this year and i'm not choosing triple sci so ahem. humans?-.-

#3: the art of saving money. so i could spent them. thankyousomuch. because i'm having money crisis here so i hope santa could give me some too. but hey WHERE'S SANTA?! HELLO?! ?!

#4: file all my worksheets. WEEKLY. i don't want another experience of my file getting so thick and giving it slimming sessions like once in a million years. i should understand my file detests being fat too.

#5: i could force myself to study at least two hours at night with my laptop off and sleeps at 10.30pm and no listening to radio and causing my phone to go flat the next day and yada yada yada comes in.

#6: clear channel 55's 8pm and 9pm shows on computer daily too. (this totally defeats the purpose of having scv)

#7: practice guzheng-.- i should get my butt of the chair and start.

#8: do something to make it rain everyday so that i do not have to go down to assembly every morning and get to listen to blur announcements.

#9: do my homework and do not leave blanks to think that i could copy friend's work the next morning.

#10: spend the time before assembly wisely by not idling around and talking craps and laming everywhere.

anyway, i'm sure 7 to 10 is impossible. just filled in to make it looks that i have goals.
stupid.
i've updated, jingjing![[:
hahahhaha i think the new skin looks nice too:D

272

2007-12-19T17:47:00.001-08:00

#272
my psle mark[: +3hmt marks![[:

anyway, i think singtel is so damn lucky that i didn't sue them.
good: they upgraded my internet to 3 times the current speed and promise internet after 5 yesterday
bad: the promise was broken.
good: i called them to ask them.
bad: they made me hold of 30minutes.
good: they answered finally and i asked my queries.
bad: they told me some crap which i totally cant understand.
good: my dad says he shall fix it soon.

oh great. 2 days without internet = internet deprived=.=

anyway, my dad promised a new phone next month. and i think i'm phone-struck.
i'm going to give up W580i dream.
i'm going to give up W910i phone.
i want W960i badly.
but in the end i'm with W950i.

i did alot homework this time on phones!
W960i
-->8GB phone memory!
-->3.2px camera!
-->TOUCHSCREEN!!!
-->HANDWRITING RECOGNITION!!!
which means i can write my sms-es!
-->at least costs $780
CONCLUSION: never to be a dream come true-.-

W950i
-->4GB phone memory!
-->no camera-.-
-->TOUCHSCREEN!!!
-->HANDWRITING RECOGNITION!!!
-->$375!
CONCLUSION: i'm gonna buy this!

screams! the main point here is i don't care whether its the new phone or whatever.
but because it has touchscreen.
which is so cool.
and come free with a pen [stylus] and you can actually write on the phone.
[i plan to use G2 if the stylus cannot function well xP]
AND4GBMEMORY=almost1000songgs!!!!!
ohman.
lovedlovedloved.

and i think my french totally rocks.
KEYU EST 'INTELLIGE-ONT'!

271

2007-12-14T17:23:00.000-08:00

#271
because i once thought it was okay, but it's too late to apologise.

because the fire was once red, but it turned blue then;
because you are like a heart which needs a beat, but it turned to be a dead heart afterall;
because i would take another chance for you, but you threw it away;
because in the end, i'm holding on to your rope, 10feet off the ground;
you cut me down.

i'm trying to keep my hands in the fire;
because sooner or later i could get what what i'm asking for.
but its good to realise, nothing is broken.

you're in my heart just like a tattoo.
i'll always have you.

sorry i have to move on and leave you behind.
sorry i have to be strong and leave you behind.

270

2007-12-14T04:02:00.000-08:00

#270
ITS FRIDAY!!!!![[:

ah i shall be the first to post about today! it's so fun!(:
went pam's house to bake=.= ahh. long traveling time but i don't really mind because we are baking cookies[[: had lunch at J8, lunch was nice[[: then we went to bake cookies! at first supposed to mix the butter with the flour but it's too hard for me-.- so don't know who went to beat the butter (i thought it was like hitting the butter=.=) then in the end everything seems so difficulty with me, so i ended up with the slackest but important job!-measuring the weight for cookies(: ah now i can anyhow just take some of the mixture and it would be 5grams[:

and then we have to roll the mixture into circles! then must make some indication thingum and joined 3 circles together! then we filled each small circles of the joined thing with different jams! the first batch is like so funny-.- the second batch is must better(: and then the last batch is when we get sian of rolling, and measuring, and creating indication and putting in jam. so xueying started having her BIGBIG cookie and ALOTALOT jam![: ah so funny lah ><

then we played cluedo-.- oh thats a super amusing game[[: i needed so long to understand the whole game. and i keep wanting to go to the place where they keep the confidential file=.= and nobody asks me question D: then i'm so desperate. and tong NEVER has a card for me=.= okay the day was fun. i'm gonna die of laughing soon.

and i've come up with a list of things which i MUST buy before school reopen![:
1) school bag=.= i need one with ideal size and not heavy. i think i'm having some problems with my back. budget: 30bucks
2) water bottle! for drinking water-.- budget: 15bucks!
3) new penS i can wait for my popular offer-.- *all cost would be paid by my parents*

things that i SHOULD buy-.-
1) a smart-looking shirt! like those with a tie! i'm so inspired by xiao yuan to LOOK SMART![[: budget: 15bucks!
2) flat jeans budget: 20 to 25 bucks
3) another pair of sneakers! because i realise they are the best to walked in! budget: 20bucks!
4) socks=.=

ah i need money O:
money money oh please,
drop from that sky and land on me.

269

2007-12-12T01:46:00.000-08:00

#269
and we could do it again![:

HELLO WORLD[: its the 269th post and that is equal to my PSLE mark(: and when its the 272th post i shall say its my PSLE mark plus HMT marks. omg-.- holidays have changed me to be so ridiculous.

and i successfully read 5 pages of romeo and juliet and i fully understood them[: i'm staring at the book for like so long, and desperately trying to find some sense in that sense-less book-.- and old english rocks until i could not even understand normal english. i didn't know move is angry-.- i'm staring at the line: I'M MOVE =.= and i got the GV membership card yesterday(: ah its so cute(: the card is of the shape of a popcorn box!(: ah i like i like![[:

went orchard today(: with jiahwee and xiaoyuan. ah i love xiaoyuan's shirt! because it has a tie and that makes her look so damn smart![: i want one too! hahah and it only costs 12bucks like super worth it. i actually just went to exercise my legs today when i didn't buy a single thing-.- and jiahwee bought so many things until she looks so much nicer[:but she bought her pumps and she haven't even wore if for 20minutes her heel started bleeding O: BLOODY HELL SCENE O: now i'm having serious fear towards pumps D:

and i lost my maths worksheet. i used like don't know how many foolscaps doing the maths worksheet. and i have to re-do D: and i must force myself to jog tomorrow. i ponned so many times and giving the excuse to myself that its raining. which reminds me i hope there's sun tomorrow morning.

i still need a lot of things before school reopen! O:

268

2007-12-07T05:06:00.000-08:00

#268 you just need another turn
i don't think i'm posting any sense in the previous posts=.= because obviously the person who post it lacks abit of common sense too. okay anyway, about these few days. they are too eventful to ignore. oh this is going to be a super long post.

thursday
pizza hut. skating.
pizza hut rocks because i love it just so much as much as before. and it is super fun because everybody is laughing so loudly then i doubt anybody heard us since we are in a corner. and everybody is laughing at how dumb i am. shan't elaborate more to prove that i'm lame.
skating is nice but obviously i fell and its to the extent that my butt hurts when i went home lah-.- and rania is really so pro. TURN SO MANY ROUNDS. i think i would just faint and lie on the ice=.=

played cards. eventful day. but its raining so heavily=.=

friday
I WENT JOGGING TODAYY![[: like finally one fine morning and its not raining. and how i wish the weather is just like not raining but super cooling![[: (like fat hope) ah my stamina is jkhewklfhkwgh so i shan't elaborate on how tired i am. but feel very shuang since today didn't have any sun[[:

then it was bowling at yishun safra which is near SOMEPEOPLE's house lorh. their jia xiang. and its like i arrive so early with xueying (we are punctual people) when all the others are late=.= bowling @ orchid bowl is so cool[: and i think i have YAUN FEN with that LONG GOU-.- and we played for damn long lah. but its enjoyable.

then after that we played pool for 2bucks. omg we are so lousy at it that we took dont know how long to finish the game. this whole process package includes:
1) pushing the balls into the holes saying that: IT ACTUALLY SHOULD BE IN!
2) hitting air balls
3) tonnes of laughters until jaws hurt throats hurt and lungs gasping for breath
[[:

DEDICATIONS!
tongzhen xiao jie suggested that i blogged about her like the way she do for yuhui and suggested i blogged about yuhui too. okay yuhui first!:D

President
Of nanyang guzheng and always
Helping everybody. likes to
Yell so much but we all love
U!
Hope that
U would be always happy and still as cheerful
In the future[[:

okay tong posted 10statements for yuhui mah. so i shall post 5 statements on tong. why? because 一五一十. since tong already got the 十 so i shall do the 五.

statement 1: limtongzhen has a wide range of vocabulary.
evidence: the various ways she answer me 'yes' with
1) yes [english]
2) orh [singlish]
3) hai [jap]
4) SI/DIU [hokkien]
5) oui(?) [french]
6) shi de shi de [chinese]

statement 2: limtongzhen is a GREATTT speller.
evidence: the various mistakes she makes continuously in a conversations. but due to the excessive spelling errors that she make, i shall not post them out if not it will make her looks bad. i'm nice[[:

statement 3: limtongzhen is easily influenced.
evidence: due to the excessive talks with KEYU[[: she has become as lame to play a game called 'XENO' when all you have to do is plunge in some bombs or things and pray that there would be survivors before your health fails on you. okay i know you don't understand, but the game is lame.-.- and she has so many lame conversations with me-.-

statement 4: limtongzhen loves the alphabet 'O' very much.
evidence: just in the recent conversation, she typed:
1) YOOOOOOOOYOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
2) nooooooooooooooo
3) oooooooops
4) nonononoo

statement 5: limtongzhen has a brain and it is quite developed[:
evidence: she knows how to respond to my ultimate lamess like the following:
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
4th liao

(: says:
hahahah
(: says:
so fast!!!
(: says:
i spent so long on yuhui's la!

Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
hahah
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
i smart mah
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
see the difference
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
[[:

(: says:
haha

Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
you have so much evidence

(: says:
WO YONG XIN

Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
WO YONG SHOU AND YAN JING
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
AND MY BRAIN

(: says:
=.=

Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
HAHAHA
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
cannot beat me loh

(: says:
XIN most important!

Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
HAHAHAHAH
Ke Yu(: is HEALTHY![[: says:
okay lah

(: says:
yay

---end---
i think i spent an hour on this post.
its damn long
6E OUTINGG TMRRRR[[:

267

2007-12-05T05:45:00.000-08:00

#267
London bridge is falling down; my legs are falling down too. ]]:
omg-.- this is even worse then my dear jogging of 2.4km=.= okay i'm dumb.

oh and i'm hearing the kfc advertisement now=.= okay this is stupid.

HAHAHAHAHA.
witch yoo hee episode 7 liao! *screams**gasp* POINTS FINGER AT ME! you are so slow. bleah :P hahahah. its nice[: AND i think YUL from goong is so shuai inside![: zomg. hahaha. and chengxin says he become a bad guy in the end. so sad): and the woman get to kiss not one, not 2, but THREE guys in the show![: hahah hen shuang loh. thats according to chengxin-the-great who have completed the whole drama[:

oh yay jogging tmr.
and rainy days are so nice to sleep in.
OMG I LOVE TO SLEEP.
and the hot water in bathe
i don't know why i'm blogging about this-.-

and my legs still hurt damn lot.
~!@#$%^&*()_+

266

2007-12-04T04:26:00.000-08:00

#266
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA[:
currently super addicted to WITCH YOO HEE xD
for get the fact that i'm only at episode 2-.- hahah the woman is pretty de loh[: HAHAH and gt YUL from goong inside[: HE IS SHUAI LOH xD hahah support him coz he got the same birthday as me!(:

went plaza sing today with joanne and adfklsflsdhh[: we watched ENCHANTEd! hahah i like the storyline so much xD okay the songs are pretty nice too xD

HAHAHAHHA and i'm like so broke=.=

and there's shopping tmr at far east-.- which actlually means WINDOW shopping to me.

and there's some picnic at west coast on friday.

omg-.-
i'm just so broke.

265

2007-11-30T17:14:00.000-08:00

#265
就是在最后的光亮消失后，进入了黑暗，才会有明天的到来。

有些人撑不下去了，败给了黑暗的入侵，忘了曾经那些鼓励的话语、忘了长年累月来的坚持，就在这时候，放弃了。这场战，打得好失败。

有些人就算是用尽所有的力气，也要撑着看到日出。成功了。突破了黑暗的威胁，记得所有的牵挂，看到日出后，再吐出最后一口气。这场战，赢了。

因为人就是那么脆弱，软弱，要承认，自己也是。
因为能够从黑暗中再站出来的人，以超越了胆量的试探，而是价值观的考验了。

“宁愿洒脱得走完这人生，也不要留下牵挂”
牵挂，只因为放不下；

但若走到人生的顶端，还会牵挂吗？会的。
但只有在看破红尘之后，才明白真情可贵。

人生中，总是忽略了细小的细节，我们的心脏日夜不休，从来没有放弃继续跳动，为什么？为了让我们能够走完人生的道路。但有谁曾经那样的感谢它？但只听到心脏病人士埋怨它。心脏从来都没错、是我们错了。

很欣赏抗癌的朋友们；
想感谢器官；
因为没有他们，我们是什么？

风筝有风、海豚有海；
擦干眼泪，勇敢面对人生巴

264

2007-11-30T04:14:00.000-08:00

#264
C'est La Vie[:
hahah i like i like i like[:

and and
MY GUZHENG EXAM IS OVER![:
most probably i won't touch it for 3weeks=.= until practice reassumes. practice have been so boring these few days. but they are over so good[: ahah i think i did okay for exam! although mistakes quite obvious lah-.- side reading is better then what i expected[: and the teacher say 'bu cuo' loh so i take it as bu hui cuo = not wrong=.= hahah will pass lah-.-

okay interruption! I'm supposed to blog about this veryveryvery important person. i shall make her name bigger.
LIM XIN TONG
great[: now she will be damn happy and over the moon and she has been coughing excessively since we started a conversation with rie[: and she is going to the first class hospital with great servants [like she is rich enough to have hunks anw] and she agrees with me and sheena to have pink as class tee colour[: hahah nobody will agree de lah although i would support that idea(:

okay let me see what happen this week.
tuesday
went orchard as early as 10am with pam=.= and we strolled around orchard and tongzhen think we are siao. okay anw its raining and blah blah and we went borders and we passed this adv which has this super interesting picture and the caption is 'i am milk' and pam get so high and took a pic of it[: then we went to tongzhen's house and stoned there. her house is too clean and big for me to get used to. and i brought the majong tiles for nth. and get shoo-es after lunch=.=

thursday
went chongmin's house with pam. was supposed to meet at 10.30 but chongmin turned up at 10.50 so sui bian lah. then go her house and i realise everybody's house is big=.= okay anw pam and chongmin are on piano playing the si shou lian tan from secret and they are trying desperately to get their notes right and it sounds okay but after mari and xintong's pro-er version high expectations mah. being no-piano-listening-genes i picked up any book i see around and read. THE SISTER'S KEEPER. i think its the book xin tong used for storytelling. nice loh. but with my reading speed its =.= and we turn out to be late for cca. [:

yes tmr is a new month. 1st dec. i shall set goals. in case im slacking my time off again.
1) i need to go library and get some books
2) get up and go popular buy books-.-
3) finish up my hw [mensuration and algebra and chengyu]
4) start my portfolio with all those cheem essays
5) force myself to start reading mocking bird and romeo juliet even if i can't understand
6) do more maths qn to prevent my brain from rotting

great. so many things. so little time.
holidays.
-.-

263

2007-11-25T17:37:00.000-08:00

#263
HELLO[:
i'm bored. so i fooled around with photoshop:D
hahahah. so in this post i shall show you the MAGIC OF PHOTOSHOP!

WARNING! THIS IS A PICTURES HEAVY POST[: WAIT FOR THEM TO LOAD[:

hahah okay so the original picture:

we can make it into many much things!:D
i shall explain[:

1. This is what the picture looks like after desaturation!

2. This is the motion blurr effect!

3. GLASS RIPPLE<3 i like this one:D

4. PATTERN OVERLAY!

SEE:D magical rightrightright![:
this therefore proves that photoshop rocks:D
okay i'm crappy enough alr:D
BYEBYE[:

I SHALL DISCIPLINE MYSELF TO PRACTICE GUZHENG COZ EXAM IS ON FRIDAYYYYY.

262

2007-11-23T00:29:00.000-08:00

#262
HELLO PEOPLE[:

you know what those cheem people say:" everything will fix themselves back[:"
its true afterall.

i realise all my previous skins pictures are all intact[: they are all in my photobucket account:D hahah so its a hooray:D and i like my new skin too[: i think its my bestbestbestbest skin. haha anyway, i like the woman with the polka dots dress[: hahah should be marykate if i'm not wrong[:

but bad news.
i think i dislocated my jaw.
stupid D:
now i can't eat properly, can't talk properly D:
eat and talk D: is what i need okay D:
the strain is so painful D:
zomg. i feel so fed up with my jaw.
this is what really called JAWS DROP.

guzheng exam in one week=.= i don't know what to do=/

hahahahha its complaining time!:D
+~_!)@(#*$&^%
haha over(:
---anti climax:D---
walao cry so much for what. contribute to singapore's water resources lah. such a small thing only. attract attention only loh please. i don't believe that smth would make someone cry man. its just a remark/comment so what? who ask you keep prac fei tian. want fly right. act emo lah you. still say you are not. thats like diao-.- and you even earn a hug frm laoshi worh. congrats? stupid=/ you just won't ever understand
what's your problem?

OKAY I'VE COMPLAINED FINISH LE:D
byebyebyebyebye[:
i've updated.

and when i know is 294, just stare in desbelief loh. like what can i do. murder that person lets exchange marks?
and west grove on new for almost 1min! HAHAH i counted;D and its good:D and joanne say we have the same type of uniform as them only different colour:D HAHAHAHA xD and the top scorer is angela leong-.- 287-.- haha expected. she went dsa to nus-.- okay anw, CLAPS CLAPS CLAPS:D finally my pri sch on news :D wahahahahaah xD

okay this is really BYEBYE[:

261

2007-11-21T02:24:00.001-08:00

#261
its the end of something old.

great/ now i finally understand what it is 旧的不去，新的怎么来？
now my brushes and stocks and textures and all my dears are so neat man ><
can't believe myself(:

yes.
and stardust is nice[: interesting story;D bee movie is okay lah:D but abit not as funny as expected=]

you see the star dropping?
hello hello hello crisis here?
so should we shout HELP?
or just let it keep dropping!

forget it.
nobody would ever listened to our helps.
not yesterday. not now.

depend on ourselves?
let's see...

260

2007-11-18T04:08:00.000-08:00

#260
I'm so sad but i need to exclaim some just all so super bad news to me but you may go like "what's your prob?" coz these things might just don't even have any conncections with ya.
okays.
let's break the news.
my laptop is abit sot and cannot operate this morning. so my dad went to reformatted it.
yes if you still don't know what i mean and what i'm driving at. well.
it means losing my dear photoshop stuff, brushes, textures, patterns, english songs, my dear dear dear dear dear blogskin codes, and lastly my dear dear dear dear dear dear dear PICTURES!

walao terrible.
~!@#$%^&**(()*^&
forget it i don't know what i'm typing. just updating after quite a long time i guess;

lesson learnt: always save my dears in hard disc
stupid=/ i lost my prison break too.

i swear i'm going to love my dears like real dears now.
PEOPLE WHO HAVE CODES OF MY PREVIOUS SKINS PLEASE SEND THEM TO ME.
i really miss them so much D:

okay. i like this song. jenny by click 5(:

i like i like:D
my coming week:
monday-movie with jingjing;
tuesday-movie with zhiyun and maybe some others and running!;
wednesday/thursday-guzhengguzheng;
friday-gym and running with zhiyun!

haha i updated.
like finally.
i miss my computer.

but to think of it,
when you are left with nothing, you can have everything;

259

2007-11-14T03:55:00.000-08:00

#259
"you are the most wonderful that happened to me"
-the game plan;

那些名言、大道理，你还真的相信吗？
这下真的太扯了吧

walao act guai D: stupid lah. like how suddenly you love teh class so much. walao. know your own limits lah. scold and lecture me i cannot post what i post meh. WALAO. and ahem still believe all thsoe da dao lil. walao.

hey you. you do not have to give comments alright?

258

2007-11-12T03:21:00.000-08:00

#258
hellos[: I just finished listening to Jay's new album.
not good with words. so I shall use a picture!

its the cicle of life;
well my turn is over.
your turn.
so be done with the truth or dare.
now it shall be:
a truth or a lie?

257

2007-11-09T04:04:00.000-08:00

#257

EMAIL DISCUSSIONS
i would like to express my upmost disappointment and sadness and unhappiness over the various emails discussions, or when said harshly, disputes. after all the seemingly thousands of emails we still could not reach a conclusion. that's the stupidest thing=.= we have our mailbox and inbox flooded for nothing. so i should show my graditude after all these discussions my unread mails had drastically increased and thus the amount of space i used in msn hotmail account has increased. thank you?

CLASS OUTING
i would like to ask why is there a sudden change in the date-.-
because due to this major change, i could not go, others could not go. saturdays are seriously the days when i bet people are the busiest, okay so maybe you are not doesn't mean others don't. and i remember the consent form stated 9TH NOVEMBER FRIDAY and not 10TH NOV SATURDAY. so on the whole, if people refused to go, there's a very and super valid reason.
and i don't really like whacko=.= nopes=/ and i don't think we can bond much. as in. at least 1/3 of the class not going. what do you want to bond?
"this is a class event, its NOT a chance to hang out with your close friends"
i shall say all the people in 103 are pretty much close friends. if its not a chance to hang out with close friends, not a chance to hang out with 103, why should we even go?
no offence though.
and if i remembered clearly, the monitresses stated that we could go whateevr time we want, as in during the duration she gave us, thus, this shouldnt be that we all meet all at one same time.
if its ever out fault we have anything on saturday, well we shall all take the blame i guess.

choices
well.
its then.
you sense
something good.
in the seemingly bad.
i'm glad.

last note
i sounds damn mean in this post. but since i don't want to voice out what i think in emails, because if not i'm going to die even more for a wet blanket, i might as well typed it out all here, yeap. just close one eye and open one.

256

2007-11-04T16:13:00.000-08:00

#256

HOT NEW SKIN i know[:
but its the first time doing skins with navigations so abit not nice, since my tagboard looks so pathetic. ahahhas such big space so small!-.-

OH JOANNE IS ASKING ME TO POST AGAIN!-.-
my loyal fan you see:D

thanks to all the people who tag[:
esp xin tongggg(: and joannee(:

and ive been too lazy to update my links again. andand
THE CREDITS. ahahahs, i find it a chore-.-

and to zi wei:
dont want submit skins coz they cant preview my skin and i super bu shuang with them!-.- so i give up. okay im lazy

KAYS FINISH UPDATING:D i promise flowers for people today!(: shall buy soon:D
BYEBYE!(:

255

2007-10-31T04:56:00.000-07:00

#255
不好笑不好笑不好笑不好笑

YO!(: i'm updating my blog;D joanne no excuse to scold me anymore((:
okay these days. nothing much. just slack at home. what else to do anyway. and stare and stone in front of the computer. but the retarded msn live just couldn't sign me in. like what the crap. so i smartly used ebuddy! abit not really convenient, but better then sticking with my retarded msn live=.=

and i protest!protest!protest! to the fact that 103 is selling drinks, but cant lah. protest no use. but anw, sell jiu sell lah. since alr give money for budget. but seriously.
BUBBLETEA VS CAN DRINKS which one will you choose?
******silence******

一条鱼，能够以一副的表情面对几百种世面；
但为何我们人却不能以一种表情，应付你我他、事件？

从来不喜欢恶梦、却从不痛恨梦，
因为只有在梦中，才能有个完美和平的世界；
为什么总是要在梦中，所渴望的事才能实现？

大家总在安为自己，在失败时，告诉自己人生又起有落；
但为何只在低落时，才明白这道理呢？

星星；
每晚都被迫聆听，成千上万无助人类自私又自怜的许愿。
它们怎么会这么倒霉？
感谢上帝、我不是星星。

而且，我也要许愿；

[edit]
and after a thousand of million years, after the thousand million days, keyu has finally
UPDATED HER LINKS
this deserves claps don't it?
so.... ****APPALUDS****
andand
I KNOW HOW TO SPEAK 是吗 and sorry in korean;D after staring at the korean shows for so long, must learn ma, or dui bu qi to myself.
okay end of edits, just to let you applaud for me;D
[/edit]

254

2007-10-27T22:53:00.001-07:00

#254
"hello ends with goodbye and the good memories would make you cry"

LAST DAY AS SEC ONE IN NANYANG
well, now im back to square one as nobody. sec one has just past but im nowhere near sec two. and i think the whole sec one montage is quite well done(: i like all the songs, like they just hit you. maybe thats "influence" and thats leadership display. oh what am i mummbling=/

at least we had this ice cream from the school
red bean. two.
its been a yoyo! day like never before. well yo here yo there. trying to find the comfort in YO-ing obviously

walking down the same old corrdiors, holding on to the same drink, or maybe a different one, the last thing i ate, wanton mee. the last dirnk i drank, lemon barely. i'm sure gonna do something different next year. last words said in nanyang as a sec one: I WANT THE CHICKEN PIE. okay lets just not count that. its BYE isn't it.

time flies like a bird in the bright blue sky. it heals scars, help our dreams soar and take flight. one year in school just ended like that. happy or sad memorise are all over. no more need to think and crap about the past too much. lets look ahead, but well, who ever realised they did that until they proved it?

somethings are not meant to being said out loud or exclaimed. somehow they are the words left unsaid. thats the whole magical thing isn't it.
thank you 103 for all the memories.

就算是一分钟，因为有你在，生命才有色彩。
伤心；不是因为离别而伤心
失落；是因为你们的失落

有时，我们要的，比你想的还简单。
复杂的世界；简单的要求

当期待变成无奈；
and yeah. its bye to 103
and hello to 203
--the last year; the last goodbyes

253

2007-10-23T01:54:00.000-07:00

#253
today ~~sucks~~.
it was pratically the emo-est day in 103. and i earnt haters, like wth?
~~damn it~~

anyway, ytd night was so lame-.-
MSN CONVERSATION!
---complaining about teh house being removed---
(: says:
can use for next yr!
(: says:
er
(: says:
camp?
(: says:
choral drama?
(: says:
om?
Ke Yu(: says:
free house!
Ke Yu(: says:
yay!
Ke Yu(: says:
without government's allowance
(: says:
=.=
(: says:
later i go rob your house
Ke Yu(: says:
and we kena scolded lah
Ke Yu(: says:
ahahs
Ke Yu(: says:
YOU CAN
Ke Yu(: says:
PULL IT OUT
Ke Yu(: says:
ZAI SHUO
(: says:
oooooooh
(: says:
i steal it then!
(: says:
dont want rob
(: says:
steal better
Ke Yu(: says:
HOW YOU STEAL
Ke Yu(: says:
scarely
Ke Yu(: says:
the whole house
Ke Yu(: says:
DROP ON YOU!
(: says:
then
(: says:
i
(: says:
scream
Ke Yu(: says:
andandand ME ME ME
Ke Yu(: says:
will JUMP UP!
Ke Yu(: says:
with torch light shone on YOU YOU YOU!
(: says:
then
(: says:
i w
(: says:
*will
(: says:
wear a plastic bag over my head
(: says:
before i go steal
(: says:
and sunglasses
Ke Yu(: says:
AND YOU WILL BE PANTING
Ke Yu(: says:
AND SO I WILL TAKE OFF YOUR PLASTIC BAG
Ke Yu(: says:
to save your life
Ke Yu(: says:
frm suffocation
(: says:
wow
(: says:
thanks
(: says:
ah
(: says:
no
Ke Yu(: says:
and my friends will think your sunglasses is cool
(: says:
no plastic bags
(: says:
i want a mask
Ke Yu(: says:
THEN WILL TAKE YOUR GLASSES DOWN
(: says:
those power ranger kind
(: says:
hahahaha
Ke Yu(: says:
scarely
Ke Yu(: says:
SOMEONE
Ke Yu(: says:
SLEEP WALK
Ke Yu(: says:
GRAB THE STRING BEHIND YOUR HEAD
Ke Yu(: says:
and SNAP!
(: says:
haha
Ke Yu(: says:
your head will be the suffering one loh
(: says:
since its sleepwaloking
(: says:
shouldnt rmb me anyway
(: says:
and aiya
Ke Yu(: says:
ahahs
Ke Yu(: says:
WITH TEH SNAP
Ke Yu(: says:
WE WILL WAKE UP
(: says:
shouldnt hurt that much
Ke Yu(: says:
YOU WILL SCREAM WONT YOU!
Ke Yu(: says:
and i shall rmb your scream(:

next is the drama of tongues fight=.=
SCENE ONE
(: says:
*sticks out tongue*
Ke Yu(: says:
*sticks tongue back*
(: says:
*pulls outt keyu's tongue*
(: says:
*evil laughter*
Ke Yu(: says:
*pulls out tongzhen's tongue too*
Ke Yu(: says:
*cannt laugh*
(: says:
*screams*
Ke Yu(: says:
*screams back*
Ke Yu(: says:
*suddenly, laoshi came in*
Ke Yu(: says:
*NI MEN ZAI ZUO ZHEN ME?!?!?!?!"*
(: says:
*grabs own tongue and sticks it back with styrofoam glue*
Ke Yu(: says:
*keyu use superglue
Ke Yu(: says:
*"LAOSHI WE ARE EXERCSISING OUR TONGUE"*
(: says:
*tong pulls out again before it bries*
(: says:
*dries
(: says:
--smiley--
Ke Yu(: says:
*keyu dont care what tonzhen is doing*
(: says:
*tong eats incecream*
Ke Yu(: says:
*then ******* enters*
Ke Yu(: says:
--smiley--
(: says:
eeeeeeeeee
Ke Yu(: says:
*tongzhen's NIGHTMAREEEEEEE*
(: says:
so creepy
(: says:
the smiley
Ke Yu(: says:
ahahahahhahaahahs
Ke Yu(: says:
I KNOW(((:
Ke Yu(: says:
thats the whole point i wnat to make!
Ke Yu(: says:
******** scream at the sight of tongzhen's tongue*
Ke Yu(: says:
*keyu screams back at ******* because she dont like her*
Ke Yu(: says:
eh your turn eh
Ke Yu(: says:
i keep talking
(: says:
*tong screams at keyu cos she has prejudice towards other ppl*
Ke Yu(: says:
*keyu dont care because sheena came in and scream too*
Ke Yu(: says:
*sheena and keyu started sticking out tongues AGAIN and tongzhen
(: says:
pulls them both out*
Ke Yu(: says:
*but suddenly, ***** enters too*
Ke Yu(: says:
*"ITS THE BIMBO REUNION" keyu and sheena screamed*
Ke Yu(: says:
*but they cant because tongzhen had their tongues*
(: says:
*tong throws tongues about*
Ke Yu(: says:
but haha
Ke Yu(: says:
*tonzhen 4gt that keyu and sheena have hands
Ke Yu(: says:
*tongzhen
Ke Yu(: says:
*so sheena pull her tongue out while keyu try to break free from the holding of tongues*
(: says:
*tongzhen collapse*
(: says:
*out of laughter*
Ke Yu(: says:
*and keyu and sheena stared at her laughing*
Ke Yu(: says:
*but tongzhen just could not stop*
Ke Yu(: says:
*then a power ranger mask drop off frm tongzhen's pocket!*
Ke Yu(: says:
*the thief who stole the house!*
(: says:
*then tongzhen pulls out house from her pocket*
Ke Yu(: says:
*sheena and keyu gaasped*
(: says:
*starts shaping it up*
(: says:
*went it*
Ke Yu(: says:
*stares in amazement*
(: says:
*eh no
(: says:
*went out again*
(: says:
*pushed keyu and sheena in*
Ke Yu(: says:
*OUCHHHHHH*
(: says:
*put a heavy lock on it*
(: says:
*laughs*
(: says:
*and oh
Ke Yu(: says:
*but keyu reads harry potty*
(: says:
she took back her tongue first*
Ke Yu(: says:
*so she has teh invisibility cload*
Ke Yu(: says:
*and cast the spell on the locK*
Ke Yu(: says:
*but keyu and sheena is still in tongzhen's pocket!*
Ke Yu(: says:
*they poke tongzhen until she collapse*
Ke Yu(: says:
*of laughter again*
Ke Yu(: says:
*and climb out!*
Ke Yu(: says:
*cries of victory!*
(: says:
*angry scream*
(: says:
*steals m3 keys from hanyi*
Ke Yu(: says:
*hanyi screamed too*
(: says:
*eh no
(: says:
i steal for what =.=
Ke Yu(: says:
exactky
Ke Yu(: says:
oh i know
Ke Yu(: says:
eh i dont know
Ke Yu(: says:
*keyu grabbed the keys from tongzhen*
Ke Yu(: says:
*for some unknown reason!*
Ke Yu(: says:
*eh keyu knows the reason!*
Ke Yu(: says:
*because sheena says the keys looks pretty nice that day!*
(: says:
*eh faints*
Ke Yu(: says:
*blackout*
(: says:
*due to the excessiveness of crazy juniors*
Ke Yu(: says:
----END OF SCENE ONE-----

great now tongzhen is going to chase me with a chopper. or laugh at me this thurs or sat D:
good thing, i can laugh at her too, okay. its a damn long post! i can stop updating for at least like 3 or 4 days for this longgg post((:

not that i don't care right. i sacrificed my chance, to make you feel better, get what you want, yet you still wanted to demand for more, this is the reality world, not everybody can get what they wants, i alr taken a step, you just couldnt even let me complete my step. "its not whether you want to sacrifice, but what you have interest in" oh yes? i chose one of the PW that is not really my favourite, but for you to be able to group, i left! what more do you want?! me to die so you all have just enough ppl to form om groups? like what shit? you cannt find groups my problem is it? even our last member you snatched away! walao. you know whats last straw?

bleahx

2007-10-17T06:10:00.000-07:00

#252
WAKEEEEEEEEEEE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPP !!!!!!!!!!!!
its just so screwed. RIP. i swear im going to ace next yr. no matter what. and i shall not be thinking i would surely be one of the last few in the class. damn. i dont see a point in bragging your marks. like wth? damn. nanyang is so scary. like now then i realise. shit.

THE STAR WILL DROP
AND RISE BACK
its only a matter of time./

the star lost its shimmer. lost its light. and fell, like nobody's buisness.
but it will climb up again, up the cold night sky, the place where there is nothing but reality.
there, is the place where it fell. the same place.
there it will rise back and shine among the rest.

its whether you believe you can.

251

2007-10-14T17:51:00.000-07:00

#251
"it may never be the same afterall people do change"

last three papers results tmr. somehow i'm not that high now because im feeling bored and i think i'm seriously rotting at home pls=.= butbutbut, MOVIE WITH ZHIYUN LATER<3 at least there's something to make me occupied-.-

(: its one of those days when you totally lose your cool, its one of those other times when you just think the whole world is against you, its just one of those times when you still feel that pain inside you burning like some hot track and you couldn't bear but your tears just fell like those of the rain, its the pain when you lost something. thats the way we learn don't we? through pain and hardship, maybe thats why there's a rainbow for us to look forward too, but it doesn't matter anymore if we could find or touch that rainbow, but its just to contain that happiness you get.

tomorrow is LA marks. like ZOMG. and i'm going to hunt chengxin downn. down. down. down. LIKE OMG. SHE GOT W580i! which means i'm jealous! OHH MANN how can she get it so soon! but i will get mine soon too;D i want the black one(: and chengxin got the white one(: we will have the same phone agan;D

:D lonliness. the defination of being alone. or is it.
“当看过一场看不懂的电影，但周围的人都看得非常入神，才了解孤独是什么”
everything happens for a reason. its just whether you clearly identified the reason. lonliness, the thing that one will surely experienced when its the fame and wealth which just matters everything. its when you experiences those pains, you will grow strong. 要在最痛的地方，用最美丽的方式包扎。its just the reality world which brings us all these pain and sorrows. maybe buddhism is right.

ohh mann. ive been youtubing for so long!!! arh. and i bought the craps book! SOMETHING FOR ME TO WRITE IN! and gongyuan will write in all her hamster stuff(:

[: competition is just like sitting on the see-saw. people will go up; or down. people on the down would envy people on top, but yet they dont know people on the top is wanting and desired to be on the bottom. its just so contradicting. neevr will one undertsand each others' feelings. schools teach us to feel emphathy, but could the teachers they do that themselves? no dear. its the reality. fairytales really don't exist. but miracles do. we would make miracles happen.

you know its just that little thing you feel. only you know how you feel. it would not be the same. afterall, all of us are unique. yeah. maybe its time for the truth.

hold your breathe and it would be over soon.

trust me one more time.

250

2007-10-09T20:27:00.000-07:00

#250
"and you know that when you just seemingly ask yourself the same questions again"

hello. everything is over. so soon. and results are out tmr. so soon. note the repetition of so soon.

look into the sky! what do you see! the same old clear blue sky, the same few birds, the same few clouds, or a new clear crystal blue sky, the thousand of birds, and the different shapes clouds which just bring so much warmth inside you which you could sense it.

oh i chionged 2 shows. and i have to complete the guzheng designs by today. and i'm going out later. ohh mann.

look into the mirror! what do you see! the same old you, which lacks that little bit of confidence, which just couldn't tell yourself that it's over, which just could not get over things which you've lost, which just could not look at the dark and dull tomorrow, or the same young you, which just has that a little bit more confidence than others, could convince yourself that it's over, to get over things which are lost and treasure the present, and to look forward to the freah and nice tomorrow.

somehow i think 25skins are not even compitatble to 1 single nicely made skin. afterall, efforts are everything.

look into the water! what do you see! your face staring back at you, the water is so clear, you search that little guilt inside you which still has that tingling effect, what have you done wrong you would ask yourself, you stare at the reflection and what you look at is you, or you see your face back at you, smiling, with all your family and friends beside you, caring for you, the guilt inside is there, there, but the love and care dissolve it, like how you dissolve salt in water, what is left is that importance of treasuring friends in you, and you do ask yourself what have you done wrong, and you could always get an answer, and when you stare at the reflection, you know you are not alone.

just how one skin is so sucky, influenced everybody, and now blogskins.com are overwhelmed with the twits stuff. oh how i hate twits.

look at the sky, look in the mirror, look at the water. they are just waiting for you to accept the truth and trust which you could never help yourself to, they thought you would understand, do it, well some followed, but maybe its the power which some people defied them. look at everything.

懂得坚持、更要舍得放弃
有些快乐是终究要回家的旅行

PEOPLE STONE. I RAWK!(:

2007-10-05T23:48:00.000-07:00

#249
i tell you. the main thing of this post is:
YOU STONE I ROCK OTHERS PEBBLES(:
i know you totally agree wih this! and ME ME ME ME, yes ME!
what did i do?
I MAKE XIN TONG SO HIGH! i make xin tong so high!
okay so actually i wanted you to know that i .rock.(: because...
on keyu's island!, there are KEYU ROCKS!
omg. so ego ><

current playlist
this time is by albums, i know you are JEALOUS!
1. 西界 jjlin
2. 特务J jolintsi
3. 哲学家 fanfan
4. STAR a-mei!
5. 任意门 raine

omgg. don't you think i'm so so so fabulous! thats why i'm still so high;D
ahahs btw, i like the following song! because its so COOL;D and LAME:D describing my lame life. i know!(:

我的头顶老是有一片乌云我的脚也常常踩不到地
我的嗜好是乱发脾气的牢骚连我妈妈都不想听
从来没有嫁入豪门的命倒常幻想留头会中的凉山彝
哦背个lv就觉得自己很了不起死不承认自己只是个老百姓

我就是范范之辈我上班msn 偶尔也打打瞌睡
噢范范之辈我碰到连续假期还会喊万岁
范范之辈我就是范范范范范范范范之辈
你也是范范之辈我们一起来做快乐范范之辈

我的男人缘噢几乎是零我的腿长也长不过林志玲
罩杯永远再怎么挤也不会有g 我的体重永远不低那s.h.e
唱歌到底比不上原住民没得到金曲还要说声恭喜你
主持功力绝对输给陶晶莹幸好身边还有几个棒棒的弟弟

我就是范范之辈可以的话我想要唱到六十岁
噢范范之辈你说我太天真其实我也无所谓
受点委屈就当作是在补身体有时候吃点小亏就是占占便宜
赚钱不需要靠内线交易我这样说你会不会觉得没说服力

这个世界有时候不太公平爸爸说拜托比上不足比下还有余
没有小螺丝钉哪来的大机器更何况快乐其实不需要一身正气

oh come on 一起开心做个范范之辈噢做个快乐范范之辈没什么不对(不想上班了,明天~)

aww><
i like this song so much because its really talking about everybody's typical lifestyle!ahahs i like the part comparing with other celebs;D okay i'm siao.

yay(: i shall not say anything about EOYS. OOOPs. EOYS!(:

27thSept

2007-09-27T02:42:00.000-07:00

#248
heys;D its the end of the homelearning days. arghD: and now its only three days to EOY. i could feel the heat and i'm so stressed up. but everybody says i don't look stressed o.O okay, so yesterday i went to JP and 和zhiyun过二人世界. jealous right? because there's PIZZA HUTT:D

current playlist
OVER YOU-chris daughtry
TRUE FRIENDS-hannah montanna/miley cryus
A PUBLIC AFFAIR-jessica simpson

i think blockquotes are pretty;D
ahahs and i'm going to type a philosophic post! ahahahas;D its NOT emo! but PHILOSOPHY:D

白道、黑道似乎是两样截然不同的境界、意思
但黑道与白道就真的有差别吗？
在黑里有白、在白里有黑。
两个词的意思只有一线之差。
改过自新，应该才是最重要的
黑白正邪真的可以分清楚吗？

AND I PASSED MY LA:D and i screwed my LA fps like ~~shit~~ everybody hates FPS. oh yes. i hate them too;D and i think all my marks remained the same man. okay at least no deprovements. and i need ONE MORE MARK to get A1 for humans D: i want to scream pls.

jiayou everybody for EOYS:D
to all 103-ers, 6E`06ers and guzhengers(:

drama

2007-09-24T03:05:00.000-07:00

#247
hellos people;D once again its the home learning days. and normally during all these holidays when i stay at home whole day long, i will always indulged myself in shows. i'm rewatching 我的野蛮奶奶! ahahas! they are having 2007version soon;D I'm so happy(: hahas! i think i'm suffering from madness after those endless time studying and chionging homework.

ahahs i shall thank zi wei to introduce this fab song to me;D xiexie(:
i love love love love the lyrics:D

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

SO NICE THE SONGGGG:D
okay enough said. enjoy(:

geog

2007-09-23T04:40:00.000-07:00

246
my mugging track:
sciences
bio [home learning-drugs]
~~physics~~
~~chemistry~~
geog
~~term one: photo reading, population~~
~~term two: settlements~~
term three: ~~land~~ and water resources
term four: pollution, deforestation, ozone layer, global warming
History
-completed none-

its a long way to go. heh. >< and after reading geog, i realised:
we need land.
we need water.
we need everything.

we get land
we get water
but the environment is dying.

its that cycle over and over again. i hate it. okay hate is a strong word, but i really really don't like it. this cycle. why do we want so much? but i know if we don't have so much, i would not be contented.

okay back to my notes.

245

2007-09-22T06:28:00.000-07:00

#245
if i were to post ytd, this will be either an emo or a bad words filled post. it is to that extent man ><

you should see my pile of homework=.= victoria and zhiyun even introed it to me ytd. it makes me go bonkers. why? it spoils all my revision plans. now next week is incoporated with so many other stuff. i cannot go with my scheldue. so i have to multi task. i hate that. =.=

ohh mann. i thought nanyang finally is so good to let us off for 3 days to let us study at home because its really the big exams and i thought they are nice to let us have enough sleep to study. but what followed up is a chunk of modules. walao ><>;[

AND. i tried. i really tried but you failed me again. can't you see i'm trying so hard. to keep up with 103's pace. to keep up with your expectations. to keep up with my marks. but you walked to fast huh. i know i'm running alr. but nothing seemed to matter to you anymore. ~~painless freak~~

i really want to pass LA-.- i need it to get to sec two. its too late now.

another thing. i hate parents who are so kpo and kiasu. people knocked onto your children then the next momment you complain? like what shit is that? you want your child to be the best. the best. the best. what crap? she never get into a really good and topped school even though she could you were disappointed right. so you want your child to beat us.

don't even think about it>< you know how some parents will go around and ask for your PSLE mark and gossip about who score the highest, who is the lowest etc. freaks lah. can't you see all your children are trying so hard. stop all those craps can. and parents with children scoring well, you went all over to brag. like WTH? these are the people who could forget about earning any single respect from me.

parents are once children but they don't understand. i feel blessed that my parents are working and they are too busy to be even be bothered by all these news last year. thank you;D
jiayou all my fellow juniors for PSLE. if all the parents could stop all these nonsense. i cannot stand it everytime i walk pass west grove, overheard all those conversations, about knowing how they know how to calculate PSLE score and comparing just those meaningless marks.

i guess only i could see this problem.

hey

2007-09-20T02:37:00.000-07:00

#244
hey. I don't wish to contradict. But I just want to point out that by thinking that way, you actually is doing nothing.

being philosophic, would not change a person.
a person. those words.
you say you are influenced, but are you? you are just using words to support yourself.

self explainatory they call it. but its not. if you think those words make sense. see these.(mine)
I'm not being philosophic here, you do not have to agree.
I don't know. you just don't make me feel so right.

~~do you all still believe in all those seemingly craps?~~
if life is ever that perfect; its not life.

you are just fooling yourself telling yourself that you could change the way you look at it. the last person you could convince is yourself. don't say it for a sake, but mean it. don't just do something because others do it, you are violating those words you believe in.

not that I'm a wet blanket. I just want to point out for you to see.
but i guess you could never would.
at this junction of time, you should know that fairytales endings and plot is impossible. if you still have those feelings, wake up. we have to accept the hard true as it is. you should know that that is not you.

don't fake my dear. you feelings.

243

2007-09-19T03:46:00.000-07:00

#243
okay a quick post. today is physics dayy;D now i cannot make myself to slack, no more time to waste. hiash. i see one day passing, i feel screwed-er. if there is ever such word=.=

and i finished ah wang! ohh mann the ending so sweet;D one can seriously learn so much from a retard man;D ahahs i shall write some chinese compo about him in EOYs. AH WANG:D ahahas. and i'm mad about pizza hut-.- don't ask why. damn random;D

btw
I GOT A NEW NIKE HANDBAG
okay thats not the main point because continue reading!
FOR FREEEEEEEE

ahahs for don't know why actually=.= okay bye bye people;D i'm proud of what i have studied.
ITS EVER SO HARD TO SURVIVE IN 103.
and FPS is not as screwed although we prouldy failed and flunk the booklet like hell;D i recognised mr mackintosh's handwriting;D and we got 1 mark out of like 30++ for solutions;D i don't mind if you say we are pro;D but our final grade are the 2nd:D hehexD must treausre and be contented i guess:D

ZI WEI! I LOVE CRAPS BOOK:D I"M SURE JOANNE HAS ONE CRAP BOOK TOO:D

andand! NEWS!
gongyuan and i = sadist and optmist
is going to have a new book of craps! which is inclusive of 诗、词、句、废话。
we are going to change all these so literaturistic stuff into craps;D yay;D joanne will be co-producers;D ohh mann.

i'm looking forward to after EOYS(: 11days-.-

duhh

2007-09-14T20:56:00.000-07:00

#242
i deleted my previous two posts. so don't need to wonder where the hell it has gone to. yeah yup. and i'm not going to announce or say that i'm gonna go on hiatus because i know im fooling myself. 不能骗自己；yeah. school was just all so normal actl-.- and been to alot mugging sessions. i need to have some layout for the sessions next week. a lot of time seemed to be wasted. hm. i shall think about it later i guess.

and i read joanne's blog.

it ring a bell in me. RIIIIIINGGG. yeah that ring. hey see the following:
那些痛的记忆, 落在春的泥土里, 滋养了大地, 开出下一个花季
让我们取名叫做珍惜
让我们懂得学会珍惜

its true that EOYs are simply meaningless. what teachers and the school want to see is the results. but they would never see the pain, the tears, the sweat, everything behind just those superficial marks. ><
yeah its time to get independent. 那一滴雨水演化成翅膀

on a happy note. i realised im revising. although i think im going to slack saturday off. but hey, i actually revised;D jiayou people;D we can do it!

currently listening: 年轻就要对味
你就像麻辣锅, 有了你很快活, 一天不吃就难过
你就像黄金甲, 穿着你很暖和, 不怕有人欺负我
眼神可以交流, 心跳可以沟通, 有钱可以借你用
一点点的倔强, 一点点的幽默, 对味就是有你有我

有你陪我一起疯, 天天放烟火, 分分都感动
对味的人, 对味的幸福更浓, 不说你也能够懂
有你陪我一起疯, 天天放烟火分分都感动
对味的人, 对味的快乐感动, 对味是我的朋友

你就像方便面, 只要热水一冲, 友情马上香又浓
水煮麻辣笑话, 红烧热情感动, 我说:年轻就要对味不要理由

有你陪我一起疯, 天天放烟火, 分分都感动
对味的人, 对味的幸福更浓, 不说你也能够懂
有你陪我一起疯, 天天放烟火, 分分都感动
对味的人, 对味的快乐更多, 对味是我的朋友
对味是我的朋友

treasure your friends;D

:D

2007-09-11T00:00:00.000-07:00

#241
school com lab. end of sentence. infer the rest yourself!
SCHOOL TOTALLY ____ fill in the blank! don't be lazy because its the EOY period so start racking your brain and start figuring out the answer(: no prize for getting it right;D oh i know i'm stingy>.< medal=".="">I'M NOT WASTING TIME!. how convincing=.= and chengxin sent me a duckie pic to edit;D aww man! damn cute;D and im going to edit again;D i'm looking forward to end of EOYS coz alot people promised me to go pizza hut with me to eat the 7dollars meal;D oh its like 29days later=.= i should stop dreaming!

and ms foo came in and told use about the what control stress. so zhiyun and i ended up playing the scissors paper stone, win hit other person's hand again! and we hit until so hard that... what happen?
I BROKE MY CAPILLARY okay i don't know how many! i just saw this red red thing on my hand and i ask joanne and she say i broke my VEIN! >.< i'm alive don't worry. and then it turns out to be CAPILLARY! and i asked amazing questions: WILL I DIE?
joanne: 不会lah! will heal de!
jaslyn: i don't know!!! *laughlaughlaugh*
rie: aiyoh ah!
sheena: YES YES YES! you only have one hour left!
okay poof. i'm gone! to enjoy my last hour;D with JOANNE DUAN MENG HAO!:D

blogblog

2007-09-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

#240
xintong and aishyn tagged me to do the quiz. but the quiz is so goddamn long and KEYU is lazy so she's just too lazy to even copy paste and do it >< and i'm finishing 封神榜! one last episode! and therefore I'm so patient for once to wait for it to load through the whole thing before enjoying the last bit of the show(:
and oh yah, look at this pic(:

so 诗情画意 right!
okay its too small to see the words so here they are:
DON'T MISS ME MY DEAR, WE WILL MEET AGAIN!
HEY TSK! WHO SAY I WILL MISS YOU! I'M ONLY EXERCISING MY HAND!
but after reading the words it will be so diaoed-.- but anyways, i think its nice;D ahahas(: edited for like 20minutes? because i'm trying on the words=.= haha(: credits chengxin for the original pic(:
and my nose had been running marathon! it only stops when i drink 菊花茶！okay no link=.= but any cold drinks would tempt my nose to stop running=.= AH CHOOO D: i'm sneezing now-.-

and disney is so nice today;D back to back episodes of all the shows i like just because of HSM2! ahahs I'm watching it again! so i practically waste 2 hours of my tuesday!-.- okay nevermind de >< they are countdowning!;D and all the shows;D mymymylove;D

oh i'm not ready for school D: the only good thing is seeing joanne;D she cut her hair o.O but i will still love her;D MUGMUG TMR:D
[edits]
OH I FINISHED THE SHOW:D the ending is nice;D but I'm still kind of worked up why NE ZHA and LIAN HUA not together! hmphD: he alr know lian hua is the butterfly! BOO D: now i know why i still have that tingling of sadness lastm when i watched it;D memories(: hai so now my current situation is one line:
THE ENDING OF THE SHOW. THE STARTING OF MUGGING.
praise my vocab=.=
[/edits]

back to bloggging

2007-09-07T03:34:00.000-07:00

#239
hellos;D I'm back to blogging(: because its one of the temptations, and also I think submitting skins into blogskins.com is so sian=.= okay call me a person who 半途而废 but I'm seriously thinking of deleting blogskin account. somehow! because it can't preview my skins and the codes screwed D: hai. i cannot stand troubles and difficulties. i'm lazy

and i still miss Joanne alot:D she is not giving me chocs but other stuff, food in particular! and i will love her so much so much;D but the thing is i haven't got her lays yet:D and she promised to tutor me science, which for godness sake, i seriously need! yay for joanne(: 我会等着你回来！

and oh yeah! call me a slacker, lazy pig because i've been slacking these days and watching time pass by with these:
1) High School Musical 2 (tempted by xintong; youtube)
2) 200 Pounds Beauty (random search; crunchyroll)
3) Whatever it takes 天子寻龙 (last 4 episodes, can't wait for tv; crunchyroll)
4) Gods of Honour 封神榜 (currently 35/40 episodes; 56.com&tudou.com)
apparently i'm slacking=.= but hey! LAZY KEYU chionged out all the humans notes! so the next thing is to eat them up so as to DIGEST! and here comes in bio where we learn about the enzymes! but pardon me, I've forgotten everything O: no worries, joanne will go on an adventure to get back my memory when she returns(:

oh yah. i watched hairspray(: yeah its nicexD zac efron looks so weird. but well, 帅-er? ahahs! I'm so used to him being in High School Musical! but the movie is nice! and dramas! i finished my 法政先锋！oh man! i like the ending! i realised i'm watching more dramas and shows near big exams like eoys and psle=.= something's seriously wrong with me. currently chasing 阿旺新传. watched before but hmm, the shows i chasing recently all I've watched before. those old classics ah wang is so nice;D you can learn so much from a retard! okay im being mean >:[ but what i'm driving here is 人就是因为有了智慧，也有了嫉妒、争吵。有时不知者反而更高兴！那纯真的童真！ahahs tongzhen >< my dear cca neighbour(: okay out of point! as in its a nice drama;D innocence(: touching!

so after all these days! 200 Pounds beauty makes me fall in love with the song.
MARIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA(: anyone has it send me;D
and 封神榜 suddenly teach me so many values! don't ask me why! 孝、忠、义 oh this is so cheem=.= anw, the main thing is that 世上只有妈妈好！they made sacrifices without any hesitation for her family! and the evil people, when they are humilated or hit, i keep replaying the scene! ohh man >< I'm a freako! D:
i think people don't understand what I've typed(: they are crapps=.=

说是要放下，但做起来谈何容易？i want to make my post all very happy like those last time(:
like what dear joy says, laugh is an art; and i'm going to master it too;D

ANNOUNCEMENT!

2007-08-08T07:27:00.000-07:00

hellos all my beloved readers of this blog:D

i think i'm going to quit blogging. but its not those kind when i would totally delete my blog and this blog will be gone whatever. This is because its too much posts for me to delete, memories, very difficult to obtain all those feelings again. so yep. i'm going to stop blogging.

another reason is for me to concentrate on EOYs. and tests blah blah. i hope these move would benefit me. yeah. coz studies really come first and i wasted enough time on blogging and stuff. so i'm quitting.

but hey! i say i quit blogging as in those like updating often type; i will still post but at a like damn slow mode or something; eitehr im damn high over smth or smth smth. i'm talking no sense but whatever:D

This blog will still be up(:
but i will convert it into a form more like a site or things. yep. so i will still let the tagboard stay, and the links, because i need some links too other people's blog too XP hahas for my convenience lah. PEOPLE STILL TAG OKAY:D i will try reply your tags at your blogs like i always did(: dont neglect me too! ahahas. i will still check. and people also pls dont remove me from all your links. one is dont want trouble you all and another is i don't mind people coming and tag me :D

but i will not stop making skinnns(: i shall upgrade myself from blogger to blogskinner(:
yep i receive requests for skins; but i don't prefer given themes.
and i'm contributing to blogskins.com
i think thats its pretty long for a goodbye post le.
so yah... BYIE!
BYE BYE BYE BYE BYE:D
-;owner

P.s. please still rmb to tag okay.
P.ss. please miss me :D because i will miss all of you

BYE BYE; for real this time-
天下无不散之宴席；再见(:
all the memories here; and i'm gone will all the burden; my shoulders are lighter and i'm happy!

PEOPLE MUST REMEMBER TO STAY HAPPY :D

today

2007-08-07T02:05:00.000-07:00

home econs is alright afterall.
enough of the cursing non examinable subjects stuff.
i'm damn careless of chem, and i just want to scrape a 32 or higher.
i saw shao tan at interchange.
she makes me happy.

有时候不是说不痛就是不痛。
每个微笑的后面；藏着许多感触。好与坏、那还重要吗？
为什么你还是不明白？

sometimes the leadership may overcome you.
and point you at the wrong way.
neither right nor left.
its difficult to choose the right path.
i'm wondering on mine.
but some people just overshoot the limit;
and they hurt themselves.
its not about whether you are cool or not;
but about the feelings from the heart.

人生就是要目睹许多残酷的局面。
为什么好胜心能够像恶魔一样、控制一个人？
我真的不明白。
搞得两败俱伤，就是目的吗？

when the whole things control over you;
you not only hurt yourselves;
but the people around you-
the effects. you would never dreamt of it.

~~又是另一个悲剧；~~

yeah. i have enough of you. stop all the craps you have given everybody. you know how much we hate your attitude! i dont give a damn to whatever jie jie you have like what shit. yeah go on and think you could whatever get near seniors and craps lah. like whatever. so what your jie jie rawks so much yea? c'mon see if i care. yeah. you should seriously just sit in a corner and cry your hearts out and hey. i wont show a single sign of sympathy. coz i'm too numb to feel any pain for you my dear cca mate. what you did, including breathing, is numbing the people around you, to not feel for you anymore, would not stick out to you anymore. i wont shed a single tear for you. im too numbed to do that freak. just be open to the fact that that you know people hate you and you know the reason why. please. im immune to all the actings. every momment now, is sort of antibiotic to ya...
if you were the ~~president~~
i quit ~~cca~~

pissed

2007-08-06T06:50:00.000-07:00

pisssed. D:

walao lah. damn shitty okay. what crap is that there is hoemwork for homee cons. SEWING? like what shit pls lah. like we are all so pro can sew a bag successfully rite. damn you lah D: not like i dont want do right?! is i cannot even have chance! you said theory tomrroow okay! you lied.
LIAR.
LIAR.
shit shit shit shit shit shit shit.
you lied okay. how i trust you in future.
ohh man.
im so dead tomorrow.
stupid.
stupid.
ICT also.
stupid nanyang is stressing us with all those non examinable subjects okay. like i ecven give a damn. go on and fail me. i shall not care anymore. damn home econs. that one pathetic cooking lessons makes me fall in love and now im no where near LOVE. for shit sake.
i want to move.
i want to leave.
freedom.
like pls dont lie.
i hate liars.

what teachers do is lie.

你说你懂、其实你不懂。
骗子。
我再也不相信你了。

harry potter

2007-08-05T00:12:00.001-07:00

i went to read reviews on harry potter.
and indeed tears dropped.
the feeling is not that great when i finished the last book.
but now.

a book which bring us through lots, creating hopes.
its the last.
i cried.
not because its the last and the end.
but of the impact.

i know what zi wei feel now.
but
its true.
all those fantasies all these years;
all the guessings of plots;
all the talks;
it ended when JK rowling ended her last word.
这就是告别的滋味。
人生就是这样，尝尽了所有的滋味。

tears dry; but the fantasy never dies.
i hope so

HELLOS:D

2007-08-03T23:23:00.000-07:00

da jia hao:D

i'm still sunburnt.

people i meet tell me:"how come you turn so black!" my answer is: THAT TOUCH RUGBY LUH D:
maybe i shall answer its magic=.=

hahas i messed with photoshop these dayys again(: addicted le!! D: D: D:
i want do another skin eh, but hmm, no inspiration and i think i don't have much time le. i want photoshop CS3. i shall ask joanne:D :D :D I LOVE NYGZ BLOGSKIN TOO:D :D :D

sabbatts. okay i guess. last day is always the best day(: and we actually won maths and music with our song BBQ! oh yay!! hahas a lovely song:D and we tuned guzheng to Eflat. ohh mann. damn interesting and challenging and i while tuning back sheena and i broke one string. then i dont dare go change coz ruth and cherie say what records then cannot find so i just inform yuhui coz the guzheng is hers(: yay im RESPONSIBLE! and rugby was nice:D hahas. but the morning session people are damn urgh. =.= as if being ignorant of the rules are so pro and exclaim to everyone and complain when we score. like wth=.= shuddup your mouth, like the person who helps the team is not you. 没有资格说话！

we lost matches; but won friendships! thats what sabbats is all about(:

guzhengg. nothing much, except that i think im so gonna screw yu er gao D: and i realise HMP people are so pro! their piano is siao wan lah! today see them play then i SO SO SO SO impressssed((: hahas like how marilyn, xin tong, joanne and jingying is fascinated by guzheng:D they dont dare to play the highest 1 coz they scared break o.O lols siao de lah. and i MUST MUST REMEMBER TO HAND IN THE KAO JI FORM. i forgot about it for weeks=.= hahas and ban jiao prac is okay(: only i dont know some siao things happen. umm. hahas (: jiayou on mondayy rehersal bah:D just hope not to fall off stage=/

im not taking chem test on mondayyyy(: coz rehersal! so its tuesdayy i think:D
shall go mug later(: i'm hardworking de:D

pls lah shuddup and dont act that you know so much coz you dont and just freakingly stay at where you are and dont complain and dont act. you keep saying people hate you and you know it so just go and find the reason why! seriously think before you do anything. like what crapps you gave us. and i tell you. if you are the president, i quit cca. seriously.

一个人不需要很大的勇气去做事；
但却需要很大的勇气去承认。

it ends tonight!

2007-08-01T04:39:00.000-07:00

i'm damn SUNBURNT.

roar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
just only three dayys! and today there's barely any sun, and i think that im alr chaotah! even with the sunblock lotion! and now i got tanlines all over me!!! BOO D:
i think xin tong took a photo of my tan line:D wahaha. mine damn obvious lah! then jesslene is all damn red hahas(: but somehow i think touch rugby is a nice sport, better then squash=.= hahas. they descirbe until very scary. rugby is quite fun coz of the cheem rules which makes the whole game CHEEM! oh im talking no sense! :D

ALL THE WANTS.
ALL THE NEEDS.
ALL I DON'T WANT TO NEED AT ALL.
when darkness turns to light; it ends tonight

oh i love the song!!! :D :D :D :D :D
it ends tonight-all american rejects(:

my cough better abit le(: coz of the mysterious medicine mommey gave me((: it works okay! i drank like half the bottle le. hahas. shall continue drink until i say bye bye to cough(: and i love the song we are singing for the teacher's day audition. whatever if it is too childish or whatever craps, i just love it. maybe i love it for its childishness
now. excerpt!:
A!you're adorable; B!you're so beautiful
C!you're a cutie full of charm!
how i love this songg((: yays. tmr is the audition day.
JIAYOU 103
i think we are damn famous with our creativity. first nanzhongquan with stomping to the song "catch your wave" then next this. ohh mann((:

spent like most of ytd doing NYGZ blogskin. editing picture and stuff. and its donnneee.((:
yay. and everybody loves it:D which is gooood(:
everybody happy! i am happy tooo:D
hahas actl i also always go NYGZ blog now to admire the skin=.= i abit siao.
BUT ITS NICE;D ego ego ego!!!
hahas cca tmr somemore and im sunburnt. damnit.
ONWARD NANYANG GUZHENG!
i think yuhui is the highest among all. as in HIGH de HIGH
oh i talking no sense again:D

so at the end of this post you only need to at least bring back one info with you
this is what sabbats cher always sayy
I AM DAMN SUPER DUPER SUN BURNT
thanks for reading so far:D

when darkness turns to light;
it ends tonight[:

(:

2007-07-30T00:47:00.000-07:00

~~heartache~~!

ohh mann): i've been coughing for don't know HOW long.
2days? nopes;
FIVE FULL DAYS.
i think i'm getting sick of coughing. and i always cough at the wrong time):

sabbats!
erm yep. nothing much. except that sabbats create chances for you to spend more moenyD: but nevermind. don't overspend jiu can le(: sabbatting with jingying,joanne,xintong,rie throughout the whole thing is fun(: mr john tiong sounded sian, but i got listen okay! ~~while coughing!~~. like cough like crazy, first thing i did when i reach class is COUGH. urgh.

RAINBOWWS!!
okay obviously i don't know and forget the colours so i just put alot colours to represent it(:
interesting topic okay! it was just after i see shuhui's blog:D lols. and i'm the first person to sayy she is mature(: oh yay. honoured:D and I GOT THE PPT PIC(: eh i should ask for the whole thing. tsk tsk. damn. i forget): after i get the pic, i shall get photoshop-active again(: wahahahas. the last skin was joanne's skin. which is damn long ago. lols. IM BACK(:

yay. now everybody is happy(:
i shall be happy too(:
5slack days.
what more to ask?

彩虹；七种颜色－带着大家的梦想美丽照亮了天空。
朋友；关怀无至－带给大家依赖的肩膀，照亮了你的人生。
家人；无尽信任－带给你最温暖的，完成了梦想。

use the hand to wipe away the tears;
use time to forget about sad things;
use memories to warm yourself;
and lastly,
use your heart to feel for the others.

appreciate.
and ya'll know.

heartache. jiayou tongzhen!

2007-07-28T21:09:00.000-07:00

heartache if you ask me.

some words won't just escape from your mouth
some feelings you do not want others to see
some momments you want to be alone
some momments reality simply just sucks
some times when you just break down
but who want others to see you cry?

人总是说人是贪心的，
但人还是有感情，
因为有感情，我们都学会了关心。
there are thousand of people showing their care;love;
but sometimes the person is just not ready yet.

its not that the person dont care.
its not that the person don't appreciate.
it's just that the person needs time.
alone.
to think.
to sort out stuff.
to cool down.

shu hui's words are enlightening:
现实是残酷的；
但若不活在现实，更残酷。

some people happy some people sad.
to cry or laugh.
2 simple words but the emotions they contain totally differs.
search your heart and ask youself;
do you have those momments before?

you see your friends smile;
let it stay that way.
don't try to change the facts;
and don't imagine too much;
if you want them to stay the same.

that magical momment,
tears just drop.
not tears of joy;
nor is it sadness.
its the mixed feelings from the bottom of the heart;
and when both of them mix together, you will see smile while crying.

~~but i really want tongzhen to be happy and clara to get back to normal. i know nobody want people to see them being sad, but i just can't help it but think of it. emotions do you call that/~~

its yet another tragedy;
just hope the effects are not the same.

yeah. we would never understand the feeling. lonely. disaapointment.

yuhui said:
we does not measure a man's sucess by how high he climbs, but by how far/fast he bounces back.
yes. standing up is the best solution.
no use crying over spilt milk.
when that crying momment is over.
just get on with life.

~~could you just get online. i got things to tell you~~

just sometimes knowing too much dosent benefit at all-
it makes people more sad.
pity is not the word.
its heartache.

the day you went away

2007-07-28T05:50:00.000-07:00

the day you went away - m2m

fab song. don't know why. emotions.
i should be posting about ytd. but somehow. could not help myself to do it. i think i lost one overdues library book. they even mailed it to me. and i still have assignments and homework undone. somehow. i just want a break. shouldn't i? term 3 is so screwed.

And we were letting go of something special
Something we’ll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

(: new comm for guzheng today. was saddening to see the ppt slides. and to listen to the 我们的故事i am so touched. somehow. maybe coz the song seriously reminds me of pri sch. which is=.=

Why do we never know what we’ve got ’til it’s gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I’ve been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

byebye secfours comm;
i'm sure we will all rmb you de(:
-yuhui for her firm
-shuhui for her blur
-pamelia for her pro
-OTHERS FOR THEIR NICE(:

再见不是永远！
must say hi to me when see me okay!:D

i know what i want

2007-07-24T03:13:00.000-07:00

yes i know what i want.

i asked myself this question and now i know what i wanted.
i just want to ace eoys coz i dont know how would i be without it
no more slacking. not much msning. not much blogging. not much computer.
不尝试又怎能知道自己不行？

hellos:D

2007-07-24T02:31:00.000-07:00

50BUCKS HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHY HALLOWS

i'm getting it. oh yay. 50bucks. my dadddy is so generous this time:D wahaha. so rare of him. must snatch opportunity okay:D my deathly hallows. say hellos to me tmr:D

HOME ECONS TODAY :D
oh im happy(: harry potter and muffins. nothing to complain about le lah:D
we baked muffins. lols. i dont know i can bake so well:D its amazing(: i love my muffins. i promised to give jingying one but she left before i knew it. then so in the end i gave the people in classroom. only victoria and zhiyun only lah. and my muffin rawks okay! mine is so nice. even victroia admit mine is better then hers. wahaha. -ego!- muffin muffin muffin!!!! i shall do some at home. its super interesting:D i love home econs. aside from sewing and the tehory and coursework part.
HOME ECONS RAWKS:D

chinese test was =.=
i thinki screwed. oh yay. whatever. mugging for wen hua later. oh yayy. like so pro huh. i haven even try to revise yet. ): sci quiz tmr somemore. and some random sci worksheet. OMG. I LEFT MY TEXTBOOK IN SCH): how to do. oh shit. whatever. find my way through bah(:
and
and
and

i screwed history><

but

i aced maths:D

don't know what i should feel. happiness? or agony? mixed i guess(: okay update more tmr. when i have my harry potter. eh wait. dont know if i would make myself leave the harry potter book.
I LOVE MY DADDY!! <3 <3 50BUCKS OKAY! :D :D :D :D
and after it i shall pass it to jiayin(: im nice. then victoria or smth bah:D

虽然始终没有勇气、但自己也多了一份自信。
努力会得到成功
但不知道问题
就永远都不会成功。
我明白了！
maybe i should thank history for that:D
people lets jiayou for eoys(: i don't know how to survive but yep. we still have to continue.

只要有决心，铁棒也能磨成针！

a little too late

2007-07-23T02:10:00.000-07:00

maybe i still don't have the guts.

or maybe i just want to play safe.

geog test today was =.= 30minutes for the 4pg paper like omg? i was like chionging all the way and i almost just finish in time, around 5minutes earlier. cannot stand it. my hand was aching like siao. especially the vein there(: and i think joanne's words are still so nice and neat:D she pro person! when i finish my geog, and i look up, i saw xin tong idling and stoning there. AGAIN. she did that every tests. how can she READ QN SO FAST THINK SO FAST WRITE SO FAST. these days i seriously think she is not human at all. i think she shld be some random mutant in xmen on this world, or a robot from I ROBOT or some AI from AI, or CARA from the fps story. xin tong is amazing and she wanna change sch(:

oh yah.
THANK YOU CHENGXIN FOR YOUR CHOCOLATES:D
yum.yum.yum.yum.
hahas. see, JOANNE AND I LOVE YOU TO BITS LAH(:
THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE CHOC COZ YOU MAKE OUR RECESS(: yay.
CHENGXIN RAWKS:D

hahas. my exciting week ahead:D
~~monday-geog test~~
tuesday-chi test
wednesday-maths competition[pon chi and pe] and wen hua test
thursday-guzheng
friday-NJC concert

hahas. i think fri will somehow be a nice day because.
i going kap with sheena and xin tong till 3plus
going to coro with sheena[i pulling her with me] to buy deathly hallows [getting the 50bucks from my dadddddyyy(:]
go back to school and try to follow yuhui to go VCH coz i no idea where it is.

oh and i come up with the limmerick. i told alot people but always forget to blog. well here it is:
i ask victoria where is victoria concert hall
but victoria tell me she dont know where is victoria concert hall
so vicious victoria suggests that victoria concert hall is somewhere near victoria street
but the truth is that victoria concert hall is not near victoria street
so victous victoria is lying about that fact that victoria concert hall is near victoria street
so victoria concert hall is not neat victoria street
and now im back to not knowing where is victoria concert hall.

omg. so lame=.=
pretty lot lame things today but im lazy to blog about it. so byies people.
oh JOJO-too little too late is superb(: im abit siao. adapted from pamelia and tongzhen
OKAY I KNOW IM LAME PEOPLE=.=

sundayy colourful

2007-07-22T04:18:00.000-07:00

when people say its sunday blues

lets put it as sunday colourful

somehow i don't know what happen. everybody somehow turned all emo suddenly. yeah. emo. like not those kind of down feeling. but exrtremely down. eveyrhting seems bad and stressful and perrmisstic about life. maybe thats not exactly the feelings. im not even sure if i have been emo before. sad yes. emo nopes. or maybe i dont know?

yeah. complaining about school life. i guess all of this sudden change in atmosphere was somehow related to the course of the fact that geog test is tmr. first period. how a fantastic start for a day. so maybe coz of that, everybody went crazy. oh how typical. okay i dont know what rubbish im talking right now. i still rmb last week's cme, we are supposed to write down whats the thing you regretted doing. some wrote coming to nanyang. oh wells=.=

anyway! geog tmr! and i sort of finished my mugging. water is okay le. only i dont know if i still remember my land facts. hahas. okay i just went out awhile to recap. but need look through worksheets again later boo):

and i still think zack&cody rawks. somehow! hahas. i was laughing like hell:D

currently listening to: ashlee simpson - boyfriend

CIP!

2007-07-21T05:21:00.000-07:00

tiring day again.

CCA!
i took the bus thr. and i was planning to mug abit of geog on bus but after the first slide which is the title: MAN AND ITS IMPACT on blah blah, i feel asleep=.= oh yes? and i think the bus is somehow fast, i reach nanyang at 8.15(: and when i step into nanyang, i see ALOT parents LOITERING around and walking around like some sian people. its when my dad told me today;s DSA and i know why. LOLS?

prac was okay. yijun coz late need sing mai tang yuan can! wah so "can"): very bad orh. so i shall force myself wake up eveyrtime and never be late. and then laoshi went missing for a long time so i began mugging for geog, then is hengchun! so i went back to the sec ones room where they playing BENGAWSOLO! whatever the spelling. and was super slow and was busy counting the N2 with jiayun:D tehe(: then slack then lunch!

CIP!
everybody is boarding 174, so we monkey see monkey do, board it also. okay i know its ridiculus. then we went some random place and i saw ying ying on 174! and we went pizza hut. we are like so in a rush we are pratically rushing the auntie. oh so paiseh. and we turns out to be early can. coz others are even later in queueing and buying and stuff. and so. erm strt lah. was super tiring walking with sheena and zhen ping and li yue.l and sheena is SO lucky to have people donate 50 and 10 dollars to her. hmph): then we walk. we have a low tide time where almost nobody donated. but hey! at the last hour or smth. we were like standing thr collecting moeny and stickers are so running out fasst. yays:D and the tin becomes so heavy i think my hand also "suan".

then went home with sheena. i was aching everywhere lah. planning to eat dinner at mac but kill the thought coz need walkk. okay im lazy. so i forced myself to old chang kee and buy smth to eat b4 going home for dinner oh yeah. and im finally here blogging about my day. okay nothing can stop me. im going to mug. byies. i need to mug. (: